"A Problem Page For All!"

I'm almost too ashamed to tell you all this, but i will anyway. I didn't get into Quilters. I don't know why I ever thought they would take me, or why I thought I was good at singing/acting. I now have absolutely nothing to do for myself here except maybe cook and write letters. I'm so depressed, and I'm so annoyed that I can't keep up with all the posting going on right now. We won't have internet access here until the 23rd, and it's expensive to use it like I'm using it now (through Nathan's parents' cable) (I really shouldn't be using it I guess!).

I really, really want to use the CR's internet service more often but they're super picky and don't like students to use it for anything other than -- you guessed it -- educational services. Bleh.

So I feel kind of edgy and nervous using their computers for email and stuff!

What else is new. Oh! Guess what! Serafin is moving out!!! Jasper came running up to me today and said that he asked Pat to tell Serafin to move out, and Pat said that Serafin was going to move out anyway. Jasper said that all the conflict that has been happening -- Serafin vs. Caitlin, Nathan, and Jasper -- has been making him physically ill because he can't stand to see people arguing, and then he gave me this huge hug and said how much he loved me and thanked me for being there for him. I was so shocked! Emotional outbursts are always surprising and kind of uneasy for me, and I don't know how to react to how Jasper acted. Obviously it makes me elated, and flattered, and appreciated, and full of purpose (and I really need to feel that I have purpose right now).

The weather is just breathtaking here. It's spring! All I can think of is how much I want to go to Holland this June.

You guys -- girls -- I'm so sorry for not posting more. I'll force myself to have the energy to do it! I'm just in such a weird slump right now.

I love y'all!!!

"I've never had a humble opinion.
If you've got an opinion,
why be humble about it?"