Noticing Newbies

Hello, my name is Sean. I have only recently discovered my interest in writing, and it has helped me in so many ways mentally. Upon losing my fiance/best friend of 7 years almost 4 years ago I fell into a deep dark place and began to use fentanyl. I was never around it, or any other drugs for that matter so I am not sure why that is what I chose to numb the pain I was in but it was. I always worked to fund my addiction so I never stole or anything like that but eventually, I would end up losing my job, car, place to live, you name it. Being on the street for that short time I saw some things you wouldn't believe. I have had to resuscitate a few people whose breathing had stopped and whose faces turned from a pale gray to every other shade of blue. One day while letting my dog play on the bank of the river where I often would sit and reflect I was suddenly aware of my self-worth and found myself extremely tired of living that way. I decided to get clean and become a functioning member of society again. Through my recovery, I found out that for me a big part of that recovery process was reflecting and dealing with all those emotions, and feelings that had been stuffed so far down for all that time. So writing became a great way for me to address those repressed feelings, put them out on paper, and acknowledge them. Now I am almost a year clean, and going to school to be an EMT. I wanted to share my story in hopes of helping and/or inspiring someone who needs a little reminder of how possible sobriety is and also to let them know that they have my support 100 percent. I am not a doctor or psychologist and can't offer any help that way, but I can offer my advice and friendship. So with that being said, thank you for taking the time to read this, and do not hesitate to message me if I can be of any assistance :)