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Ashley -
I really know what you mean about the winter months. I am always much worse in winter. Which is what worries me as winter is here, now. January was the last time I cut, so i couldn't make it through the winter then. I hope I can now.
But I know what you mean about it feeling like just the beginning. And it sucks, cause by spring this will have taken over everything, if it continues, you know? And it's so hard not to, esp. when you start again. I know what you're saying though, waiting to pull through on your own. I don't have a therapist either, and can't seem to keep one. I like to think that I never need one. But I'm okay. Thanks for asking. I haven't had an episode since january, so I'm going strong. That's not to say that I haven't SLIPPED since then, but I really don't count it unless I go all out. I don't know if that's right or not, but it's what I do. How are you doing now, though? I know it took me a while to write back. (my computer completely broke! I need to get a new one.)
Check in sometime! Thinking of you.
Sarah