Lola Ann

Hi my name is Lola Ann, I was born on 9/15/96, I was adopted. I new I was a girl from a young age, yes I'm Trans. School was difficult for me, I guess I first found out I was different from the other girls when one of my kindergarten teachers told me I couldn't play the two of my friends anymore, For privacy reasons let's call them Hannah and Jann. After the teacher told me that I kinda became a loner. That is tell Hannah and Jann came up with the idea that we could still play together tell the teacher got to school and that's what we did. Now let's jump into middle school, I was constantly at war with my body, I never liked anything about myself, I tried my best to pretend that I was a boy but inside I was hurting, in 6th grade I told my aunt that I was a Trans girl and she accepted me. When I entered 7th grade I had developed a crush on a boy in my class we will call him Alex, now me and Alex did everything together we where really close friends, but I never told him that I had a crush on him because I didn't want to ruin our friendship. In 8th grade I still wasn't ready to come out to my friends and school kept getting harder and harder so my mom took me out to homeschool me. In 9th grade closer to the end of the year I was going to kill myself, I was warring a hoodie and I took the strings and tied them around my neck and started to pull but as I started to blackout I had a vision of my funeral and my mom crying and I stopped right there I couldn't go through with it. For the first half of 10th grade I was in the high school but for the second half I was homeschooled and the same thing happened in 11th grade. In the part of 11th grade that I was in the high school I finally got up the courage to tell my friends that I was trans and to my surprise they were vary accepting, a few days after I told my friends I told my parents who didn't take the news so well and took me to conversion therapy and during the time that I was in conversion therapy I lost my faith, it took sometime before I realized that God knew who I was meant to be before I was even born so he already know what I'm going through. I was homeschooled again for 12th grade. I always say that my story isn't over yet in fact it's just beginning.