Apologies

My Apologies





I could see your tear drops on my mail



And I could envision each one as it fell



Trickling down your face



As if it were in a race



I began to feel as if I had commited some crime



And maybe I should be in jail for a horrendous time



But I continued to do what I do best



By striking more wounds into your chest



As time goes by you continue to cry



Until you can no longer let your feelings hide



You tell me there are times when you need a husband



And times you only need a friend with a helping hand.



To me those words seemed a disgrace



And put you out of place.



Who are you to judge me?



Who are you to tell me Im doing someone wrongly?



Your not my mother



So those words you should just smother.



But as time progressed



I built up a regret.



I began to realize just how much I care



And how much I always want and need you to be there.



But we had already said our goodbyes



Never again to be by one anothers side.



I close my jaw and my teeth I did grind



While during a year I tried to put you out of my mind.

But no matter what I thought



You always came back into my head as the one I sought.



I gave up trying to forget you and tried to make things right.



I promised to stay true and be the person you wanted and needed no matter the fight.

When I finally got you back again



You reminded me that sometimes you only wanted me to be a friend.



I went into the relationship thinking that was for me improbable



But it was nowhere near impossible.



So I fought tooth and nail



Praying you I would never again fail.



Just when I began to lose all courage



You said just a few words.



Words that cut deep into my chest



Putting my heart and soul at rest.



I had finally completed your task



And showed you the hidden mask.

I was your friend



And the one you wanted til the end.



Now there is only one thing I can say,



"Im sorry for making you wait,



I had to open parts of my mind and heart that were before shut,



And do some growing up.



There is no excuse for what Ive done



To you and our beautiful son.



I hope you will be forgiving



And give me all of your loving.



I am truely sorry



Heaven please forgive me and accept my sincere apologies."







By Donald D. Kenworthy Jr.