Through the eyes of a writer and traveler ๐! Life and some spiritual musings. |
Welcome Y'all ๐ค . I'm into animal rescue and rights. Positive vibes and activism! ๐ป๐ It's been interesting for the past 20 years. Good folks on here and a great ๐ writing community. It's time for rethinking my writing and growing as a person . Sharing how to help others and ourselves ๐ has always been my motivation! Hugs ๐ค to new and old peeps! " The journey of 10,000 miles Begins with one step ๐ช. --Lao Tzu What you don't like Don't do to another. Rabbi Hillel Do unto others as you would have someone Do unto you. Jesus ๐ |
Hi y'all ๐ค ๐, well it's been a couple of weeks since doing my blog or writing in a creative way, except for taking some notes in my journal notebook ๐ and hoping to get back here but not sure when it would be! Today I felt better and it gave me hope that it will be okay. I've been praying ๐ a lot and signed up for the daily Bible verse's. There was a time when I started my day, with reading a Psalm and Proverbs. I've gone through so much spiritually over the years. For the past 10 years have been learning about Torah and my Jewish roots. It's come full circle because my faith is stronger now back to Jesus and the Saints, that I never really left behind. I went back to doing Weekly goals, before coming here and I will include what I wrote for my future plans and how to keep on top ๐ฉ of it ๐! I'll paste here and comment after it! One of my favorite quotes is: The journey of 10,000 miles begins with one step ๐ช. -- Lao Tzu I've been gone from making goals for a few weeks. I needed to take care of my health and make some decisions in my life. I also needed to make a formula to follow, so I can move forward โฉ ๐! These are the four main bases to cover ๐. 1- my spiritual life. Spending time with the Bible verses and applying them to my life. Also to visit the TLC Prayer Parlor and the community! 2- Health maintenance. On-going and have an appointment this month with a new digestive clinic. 3- Ongoing research and plan for our move, and to make and maintain our GoFundMe page. 4- my writing life here! To work with my goals here and see the ( hopefully) progress I've made by Friday ๐ฑ! Blogging again, and get at least one review done ๐ โ to start. Long-range goals are: to continue updating my Bios and group information. To edit and add to the item's here that needs it! It's going to be a "PRN" take-as-needed situation. Wanting to add playing my guitar and harmonica. And finally doing a bit of ballet ๐ฉฐ to improve my body and mind ๐! Whew, one day at a time Lord! Blessings ๐ to y'all ๐ค . ๐ธ๐๐ So with all the volcanoes and earthquakes ๐ซจ happening, it's scary how much the world is in turmoil. Not to mention the War's and the poor starving kids and people of Gaza... So much wrong in our world ๐ญ ๐. I'm thankful for all that is right and good ๐. For people who help others ๐ฑ and animals and do their best every day to bring good and kindness โค๏ธ ๐. We were trying to decide where to move to. So many pros and cons . Roanoke Virginia is too far away and will cost more than we can afford. We also have Maxy and Mojo the kitties to consider. Pensacola FL has a lot of biting insects and not a place to have a garden. She found a place in Mississippi that has a bus line and is smaller. It's a University town and has community there. It's Starkville and the more we find out the more it seems to be the final move for us. We need to go before she's not able to drive anymore... We are hoping to pull it off by next year by the grace of God G-d. I'm going to make a GoFundMe to help us be able to afford this. We are saving all we can too. We hope to find a rental house with a space for a small garden and fence, so the cat's can go outside and enjoy grass and maybe a tree to scratch ๐! Right now I have to cut their nails, because sis can't make it to the groomers. The light has to be a certain way but she's doing fine. There's a low vision Dr and he may be able to make glasses to help her read a book again. Is still getting the eye injections but her vision isn't improving. I'm thankful to be able to eat again and she's a great cook. Looking forward to seeing y'all again ๐. Blessings ๐ Thanks for having us! |
Hi y'all ๐ค ๐ it's been a crazy 8 days since I wrote and didn't even write โ๏ธ half about what's happening. This month started strangely and the hits keep coming! I had to look up in my appointment book, when we started noticing the beginning of it. In June,we heard a big boom ๐ฅ, sis said " it sounds like something hit the transformer." We both went outside to look but didn't see anything. A lady was walking her dogs and didn't seem to notice anything but her phone and dogs ๐ถ. We went back inside ๐ and that seemed to be the end of it. Lately, our electricity has been going out for a few seconds and I reset the stove clock (From 12:00 it's digital) our coffee maker is too but it's not affected. July first I was writing an email to an old friend ( a Jesuit Priest) I was sitting on my bed ( which is like my room, decorated in Hello Kitty!๐). Anyway I heard a very loud deep crash of thunder โ๏ธ โก and turned my head towards the window. I saw the biggest fattest streak of lightning outside,hit the park ground. It was so close, I wondered if it started a fire. ( It didn't but the ground has been very dry and it's been awful hot most of the month. The sound work my sister who was taking a nap on the couch downstairs and she yelled loudly. I didn't think about it until today's strangeness... It's been very hot in Mississippi,as well as most of the country. In the middle of the state it was 114 so probably felt like 125 with the heat index. We left the house about 9:30 to do laundry. It was in the 80s'. The AC has been out at the Laundromat all month ๐ ugh. It was really hot in there today. We were both getting our clothes out of the dryer and we were burning our hands, grabbing the clothes and stuff out. The glass and metal door,hit my shoulder and that hurt,it was so hot. We stuffed out laundry into the baskets and threw them into sheets, so we could fold at home ๐! ๐ฅ Whew. Later we were trying to watch something on YouTube ( We saw an amazing concert from 2024 last night. It was The Eagles and they can still play and kick butt! We saw them in San Francisco in the 70s , volunteering for The Haight Asbury free clinic as Medics. They are still amazing ๐ถ๐!) Well the power was going on and off and I called the Electric company ( after Speaking with our next door neighbor and the manager. Found out the Breakers were being replaced, and it took over 3 hours to do it. We were sitting on our side of the couches and suddenly a wave passed through us 3 times and it caused the TV to flicker at the same time. It was very strange and made us think of the many other times, weird things had happened. UFO's we've seen. Missing time incidents. Things I tried to forget about. Each time it happens, over the years a big change happened. We moved to another state unexpectedly. Even thinking about it, gives me pause to wonder,if I should even be writing about them. Damn there were so many... Today it creeped out both of us, it happened to us at the same time and 3 times. I'm hoping maybe someone out there has been through the same or similar situation. This week we decided not to move to Pensacola. We are going to Virginia in time instead. We are hoping for a little house rental with a yard and fencing! There's mountains there and a lot of nature ๐โ๐ซ! We are starved for it. Of course we'll have to either hit a winning lottery ticket or have more to save. Getting there with the kitties and us will take more planning. Staying at an extended stay so they can be with us โค๏ธ ๐. I'm hoping to get back here and start Weekly goals again and Blog more. My ulcers seem to be healing and feel better and more normal these days ๐ ๐น ๐! Any input is greatly appreciated โบ๏ธ! And yes emojis ๐บ definitely rock and count!!! ๐คฃ ๐ Till next time Blessings to you. |
Thinking of that Led Zeppelin song,as I started writing this! Dazed and confused ๐ค ๐ถ. I'm pretty blue ๐ today y'all. It's easier to find someone to cheer up, then ask for support for myself This place is for us to come together and be there for each other. I haven't been here a month yet but slowly connecting to other people trying to survive and thrive ๐ป๐ธ! I've been on many other sites over the past 20-plus years. The longest has been on a writing site I belong to, for 19 or so years. My plan has been to look over the stories, poems, blogs and everything but the kitchen sink (!) and keep the best. To finish or edit as needed! All that sounds good and well but health problems keep those things from being done... Somedays I feel like " what's the point? I may always have sick mornings and days." " Why bother? easier to give up". I'll probably copy this into my current blog. My friends have been supportive as they can be. Just because one has faith ๐ it doesn't mean they won't suffer. Sometimes they are tested more than others it seems to me! It's hard when your dealing with depression on top of everything and others who don't have it, can't understand why your " making such a big deal" out of it. For the past 10 years or so, I've been dealing with a spine,that has lost part of the cushions between them and can't be fixed. The pain is insane sometimes but all can be done is pain medicine. I used to take Ballet classes and it helped some a few years ago. I'm trying to get back into it again but it's been a few months since. I had to deal with ulcers for the last year and a half. The care received wasn't good and going to see another person next month. Either it can be fixed or I have to live with this "forever". Or whatever time there is! For years I was on the go! Raising kids later grandkids. Worked and did a lot to teach and help others over the years. As crappy as I felt today, was trying to be patient and positive. It also affects my sis who lives here. Today she needed a 6-pack to deal with me being sick again. Even though she says " don't feel guilty, it's not your fault" Her vision is low and makes it harder to drive in certain light conditions and keeping her from reading or sewing ๐งต๐ชก. I'm used to fixing things and situations. Bringing light ๐ฏ๏ธ to dark times with hope and faith ๐. It's a hot sunny day but too hot out and bright to go anywhere. It's too hard for her to get to where the kitty's nail lady moved. So if anyone knows of a good nail clippers for kitties with a light, not too spendy, please let me know! Thanks for reading if you made it this far! My dear grandson turned 15 yesterday ๐ Happy we all connected on the phone. Dd |
Hi y'all, I thought I was ok, but not so I'm hoping not to have to wait till October to be seen. It's like reruns of last year. It took that long for the first appointment. I was so sure the worst was behind and was excited about getting more involved here and getting old projects started again. The best laid plans do offen go a stray as they said... Not sure how to deal with all of this. It's too much uncertainty. Will I get better? Will it stay the same and this is my new normal? It's a lot for us both to deal with. I keep digging in and looking at options. Giant mowers outside and can't hear myself thinking ๐ค! I'm skipping weekly goals this week. Great news that WDC will be celebrating 25 years birthday and will have huge celebrations! If I'm not back, will be in time. Didn't expect things to fall apart health-wise ๐ฆ. Please send prayers or good vibes ๐. Say hey ๐ too if ya like. I'm hanging in as best as possible. We both are. Blessings |
About 6 hours ago I wrote this: "So how's by you dear-ee? Hi y'all ๐๐ค ! I'm sitting in the car having a cig,as the laundry ๐งบ gets washed. The AC is out at the Laundromat and it's in the 90s whew ๐ฅ! Going to take it home to fold today. Later today I will write โ๏ธ more about this week and try to post it. Hot ๐ฅ off the press! Loud thunder and huge lightning โกโ๏ธ on Tuesday, after big shop at Walmart." Yeah ๐น it's been a crazy nutty week with ups and downs ๐ข! Ok so on Tuesday we went early ( 9 AM) and used our Humana cards โฆ๏ธ at Walmart. It's like the only place to use them ( Now that Aldi's is opening a second store and Winn-Dixie went out of business in Ocean ๐ชธ Springs about 10 miles from home.) We knew a storm was on the way but made it home safely and unloaded the groceries. An hour later or so Sis was taking a nap on the couch and I was upstairs trying to get my writing organized. I started to write โ๏ธ an email to another old friend of mine Brother "K" a Cool Jesuit Priest. He's also related to my Good friend Mabs ๐ฉท๐๐ชป! I needed some Spiritual counseling and one one-on-one friendship in real time! It's a solitary action to be a writer. You have to think ๐ค of ideas ๐ก and find a way to tell someone what your vision is. You have to read it and edit so you make yourself clear! It takes time,concentration and energy . So I'm typing and all of a sudden I heard a super loud ๐ข roar of thunder. It sounded like a truck hit the building. I turned my head left towards the window ๐ช and saw the biggest fattest streak of lightning โกโ๏ธ hit the ground outside. I jumped up thinking " I'd better unplug the TV" and heard sis yell loudly from downstairs. As I ran down the steps figured the thunder woke her out of a dead sleep. She was shocked out of her sleep. I was right ๐. It was the loudest boom we heard,it sounded like it hit a transformer. When we first moved to the south,we were living in Georgia for 9 years. We had lightning hit our house/Apt twice and it blew out our TV, stereo, washer and more like my Boom box. We had to replace everything and learned what lighting can do. This time nothing got ruined thank goodness! Wednesday I saw my " Dr" Nurse practitioner and great news, I put on 2 lbs my BP was normal, so can continue not taking the BP med! Less ๐ pills make me happy ๐๐ธ๐! We watched some pretty good old ๐ฝ๏ธ๐ฅ films this week. Lured 1947 with Lucille Ball a pretty good mystery/ thriller and good cast, including Boris Karloff! Another Man's Poison 1951 With my all-time favorite Miss Betty Davis!๐๐ฉท A great actress for the plot of this story! ๐ About a mystery writer who becomes part of a real-life mystery and the range of her emotions is way impressive ๐! So I'm taking my bookmarks out of my color notes ๐ถ app, and putting them into a Google doc. Organized into categories like Music ๐ต for links of the Beatles and Prince ๐ผ. While I was sick and too tired to get things I wanted to share in group s here,it made sense to hold on to them for when they could be helpful. I have to clean ๐ซง the kitchen in a few. It's better to do it last thing at night before I go upstairs and settle into my bed. I play Farmville 3 and different Solitaire games and earn gift cards on Mistplay. Have been doing it for a few years and nice to get Tara Incense or Estee Lauder sample gifts! This week Uranus is going into the sign of Gemini โ and expect to feel a bunch of changes coming! Can be positive or not. I will be looking into it with Sis and will share some info this week. We used to check out Mark Lerner from Eugene Oregon for years but he's gotten too technical and expensive! I get emails from Jaime Wright and looking into something new! So have a blessed week ๐ ๐ธ people and sending prayers and hugs ๐ค ๐น to y'all! |
Hi y'all ๐๐ค the ride to the Eye injection appointment will be here at 6:30 AM tomorrow! I'm getting up at four to make sure I have time for meds, clean litter box and everything else! I may have figured out more ๐ to get myself well this morning. I've been sleeping on a wedge pillow since January and I think it's making me nauseous when I wake up . Also it puts more pressure on my spine and not good. I finished my contest entry and going to enter after all . Glad to be connected but also feel lonely today. I haven't been able to reach out as much. Glad for those that say hey ๐ to me in their own way with what they have going on. I miss my buddy and thankful he helped me find my faith again. Praying he and everyone ๐ who needs prayers feel mine today. Speak ๐ soon y'all โฏ๏ธ๐ป๐ถ๐๐ป๐ฅณ๐ |
I started praying ๐ to more than I have been. Blessed Carlos A who will be a Saint on Sept 7 th. Figure it couldn't hurt! This week found out I didn't have to wait another 3 weeks to be seen by digestive clinic. We went last Tuesday and after seeing someone else who had no answers to our questions, but agreed " It was a good thing I stopped taking one of the ulcers meds because it made me sicker." I've been fine since the day after taking it! To me that's a miracle after being so sick and weak for the past year. I've been praying for our friend Mike and others also. And for others around the world. Our granddaughter Kat celebrated her 21 birthday ๐ and happy she is doing good! I'm hoping to have more energy for writing and things. Sending hugs ๐ค and prayers to y'all. As I feel better will write more! And be in touch more with comments and reviews. I'm slowly working on Sea of good karma item and thinking about the BEATles contest. Great entries there! Sometimes I just expect to hop up and feel good most of the time! There's so much catching up to do. Thankful for good souls in our paths.๐ฟ๐ถโฏ๏ธ๐ ๐๐ค |
I was hoping to start the BEATles contest today. I'm 2 weeks behind ( just seeing it yesterday on WDC) "Are you resting, crying or writing?" I'm asked. "I don't know what I am right now..." " Why don't you ever know?" ( Like that's an absolute and happened every time I was asked that.) Everyday is an argument or disagreement but called " a simple conversation" That I'm " making more of it than it really is" That " I'm too sensitive about everything" so she doesn't seem to be able to talk about anything that might upset me ". She's the victim she thinks. But in reality I am but don't enjoy the role at all. Two different people with two different outlooks. I offered to help find her glasses and was snapped at with" I can do it myself " I said " I didn't know if was a bad thing to want to help". So I'm sitting upstairs and not writing what I planned on or not playing my guitar either. ( You said "I shouldn't have bothered you and went to Mississippi and let you stay there. " Yeah I made an error leaving Washington and coming here. I thought I was helping you and making a good choice. I also felt bad that you were homeless and nothing was working out for you to get a place, and I was trying to do the same. I didn't want to burden my good friends with having me stay a year or more, trying to get on a list for housing. Our incomes don't allow us to get our own place without it. The extended stay studio was running $1600 a month. Hard to save for deposits etc. The good Lord Lordess led me to find a close public housing place and 2 months later we had a duplex. This is the third time our rent has gone up but still less than other places and we are thankful ๐. What's your income? A lifelong reality no matter how hard we worked and trying to make things different. I battle depression and anxiety daily and at 70 it's gotten harder to " snap out of it". She looks out for me as far as being careful about what she makes for dinner ( because of my ulcers that are getting better but awful to see in Jan.) Part of my problem is I'm sensitive to the tone of voice or certain words that trigger me. I've done 40 years of figuring out how people tick, and my own situations. Why they do what they do and so on Many people came to me over the years for advice and support. Funny thing is I can't always get my tricks to work on me! I'm concerned about some dear members going through their own stuff and praying ๐ for them. I'm used to pulling away from people when I'm going through it. I don't like to show that part of my life too often. I used to think " Everything that happened had a reason!" Now not sure if that's true or things are random. Being sick for so long didn't help and dropping to 106 lbs. Tomorrow will find out what it is now. I started reworking Sea of Good Karma. Not done yet. Got an awesome review on this very spot. Hoping to thank her ๐. I'm stuck in a gear โ๏ธ that's negative and praying to get out of it. I can't bring light ๐ฏ๏ธ or good things to anyone,if my candle is dark ๐. I have always believed we are in a spiritual war. Faith along with action that benefits others and ourselves is the right path to take. It's not the easiest one. The devil ๐ฟ๐ wants us to give up and not even bother doing anything good. The devil wants us alone and to think we don't matter and no one cares about us. Some people are more susceptible than others. There's so much wrong in the world and it's frustrating not to be able to fix at least some of it I need to find a way out of my own limbo. To as the Door's sang: " Break on through to the other side!๐ถ๐ฅ๐ธ" Last week I started another list of members/pals and user names, so can start tagging them with thanks ๐๐! Getting more things organized to redo my port here! I made 3 videos this week. To see if I was jamming in tune with em! I was but didn't like how serious and sick I looked in them. Bad camera angles and even though it sounded good and I was surprised at my playing ( after not having access for 3 years)! I played with Santana Smooth Black magic women and oye como vah. Neil Young The Loner One of my favorites. Maybe one day I'll write โ๏ธ about the "B". A good friend I had as a teenager. We jammed and talked for hours on the wall phone! I'm going to share this in my blog today. I figured if folks like it and me cool ๐! If not there's a billion other bloggers out there! LoL ๐ ๐ I know there are folks that do care about me and I feel the same about them as well!๐๐๐๐๐ธ๐ฏ๐ Have a blessed week ๐ ๐ธ Ok what I do? Heard " Oh your writing so I'm going to sleep." I said" what's that got to do with anything? ( I'm writing so you should go to sleep and not bother me? I didn't say you were...) Man do I miss the days of group therapy! Not even kidding. Being stuck in the house is hard. I used to go places on the bus/EMX in Eugene by myself. Go shopping, take Ballet ๐ฉฐ. See my " Cool Shrink" Get a Dutch Bros ( double shot mocha, with blended ice, almond syrup and lots of whipped cream ๐จ!) OMG I really miss those days. Wah ! I'm praying we will make it to Pensacola in a year or so. Hopefully before we die! Going to get some lunch. I had a treat this week. Amy's frozen India dinner with chick peas ,rice , cheese,peas and curry ๐! Yummy ๐ ๐คค! We have to get the car oil ๐ข๏ธ changed this week. Fun times! We make sure the car is taken care of. Maxy has been waking us up at 6 AM and it's driving us nuts ๐ฅ! I'm trying to break her of the habit ๐ญ!!! Bye ๐ ๐๐ฉท May the wheel ๐ ๐ก of fortune ๐ฅ ๐ฎ being y'all ๐ good things and blessings ๐ โฎ๏ธโ๏ธ๐๏ธ๐๏ธ |