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Rated: 13+ · Book · Personal · #2276168

New neuro-pathways after a brain tumor. My thoughts and experiences.

When someone wants to know how I am doing? My reply is, “Seven Degrees Left of Center”.

Following a severe seizure, an MRI revealed a tumor the size of a lime in my brain. September 2019 is when this occurred. Situated one inch left and seven degrees from the center of my brain, the tumor touched the hippocampus. The part of the brain that handles language and memory.

Each day feels brand new; my recollection of the previous day is minimal. I’m learning to adapt.


November 1, 2024 at 10:51am
November 1, 2024 at 10:51am
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Well ... I did it again and waited too long to write an entry. I admit the depression really got to me again. Since those closest to me unintentionally treat me like I am broken. I start to believe it is true. Ok, it is true. The 8-inch horseshoe scare around my ear reminds me. Expressly today because it itches. I am trying to remember simple things, like this blog. The blog serves as a reminder that I am moving forward. For example, today, I had to read some entries to remember why I started.

I fell into the rabbit hole of depression and self-pity. This is a difficult hole to climb out of, more difficult when "the want too" is missing. So, I admit, "I haven't wanted too." Today is a new day, but not an epiphany day. It is just a day to reflect on my mindset. It is a day to admit I feel comfortable being broken—but in a good way.

How do I make this more positive? Well, maybe by admitting it exists in the first place. I cannot change the earthquake that rattled my brain, but I can change my reactions to the current status of healing.

First, Be grateful I am not in a room watching cartoons, drooling, and wearing a diaper.
Second, Be easier on myself. Learning to read and write is a process. A never-ending process.
Third, Stop trying to remember yesterday and live for today.


Three goals that seem simple. Right?
I have sent them into the universe. Like seeds in a garden, I need to nurture them to get them to grow.

Thank you for reading this blog and any prayers and positive energy sent this way.


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