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Rated: 13+ · Book · Personal · #2276168
One traumatic event might change a person. Seven traumatic events transform a person.
Between September 2020 and December 2022, I experienced two significant seizures, a non-cancerous brain tumor, its removal, a stroke, developed adrenal insufficiency, a massive heart attack, and depression.

When asked how am I doing? I often reply, Seven degrees left of center.

Seizures are a period of symptoms due to abnormally excessive or synchronous neuronal activity in the brain.

The tumor was located up and left from my brain's center about one inch and 7o in an area responsible for coding and decoding language triggering a condition called Aphasia. Removing the tumor was some kink of Lobotomy.

Adrenal Insufficiency occurs when the adrenal glands don't produce enough cortisol hormone. The exact cause cannot be determined. However, stress and trauma are contributing factors.

A short time later a myocardial infarction, better known as a heart attack.

Depression is a mood disorder that causes sadness that won't go away.

All the above finally hit me.

November 1, 2024 at 10:51am
November 1, 2024 at 10:51am
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Well ... I did it again and waited too long to write an entry. I admit the depression really got to me again. Since those closest to me unintentionally treat me like I am broken. I start to believe it is true. Ok, it is true. The 8-inch horseshoe scare around my ear reminds me. Expressly today because it itches. I am trying to remember simple things, like this blog. The blog serves as a reminder that I am moving forward. For example, today, I had to read some entries to remember why I started.

I fell into the rabbit hole of depression and self-pity. This is a difficult hole to climb out of, more difficult when "the want too" is missing. So, I admit, "I haven't wanted too." Today is a new day, but not an epiphany day. It is just a day to reflect on my mindset. It is a day to admit I feel comfortable being broken—but in a good way.

How do I make this more positive? Well, maybe by admitting it exists in the first place. I cannot change the earthquake that rattled my brain, but I can change my reactions to the current status of healing.

First, Be grateful I am not in a room watching cartoons, drooling, and wearing a diaper.
Second, Be easier on myself. Learning to read and write is a process. A never-ending process.
Third, Stop trying to remember yesterday and live for today.


Three goals that seem simple. Right?
I have sent them into the universe. Like seeds in a garden, I need to nurture them to get them to grow.

Thank you for reading this blog and any prayers and positive energy sent this way.


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