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September 2020 I experienced a non-cancerous brain tumor, its removal and a stroke.
The tumor, discovered in 2020, was located up and left from my brain's center about one inch and 7 degrees in an area responsible for coding and decoding language, triggering a condition called Aphasia. Removing the tumor was some kink of Lobotomy. That left me with sort term memory lose and erased some long term memories. Each day I have to start over because I've forgot where yesterday ended.

Over time, the brain does heal. In the beginning, I didn't feel it ever would. There is a scare where the tumor used to live. The seizures are under control and no repeat of a stroke. However, I did have another heart attack.

When asked how am I doing? I often reply, Seven degrees left of center.


November 1, 2024 at 10:51am
November 1, 2024 at 10:51am
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Well ... I did it again and waited too long to write an entry. I admit the depression really got to me again. Since those closest to me unintentionally treat me like I am broken. I start to believe it is true. Ok, it is true. The 8-inch horseshoe scare around my ear reminds me. Expressly today because it itches. I am trying to remember simple things, like this blog. The blog serves as a reminder that I am moving forward. For example, today, I had to read some entries to remember why I started.

I fell into the rabbit hole of depression and self-pity. This is a difficult hole to climb out of, more difficult when "the want too" is missing. So, I admit, "I haven't wanted too." Today is a new day, but not an epiphany day. It is just a day to reflect on my mindset. It is a day to admit I feel comfortable being broken—but in a good way.

How do I make this more positive? Well, maybe by admitting it exists in the first place. I cannot change the earthquake that rattled my brain, but I can change my reactions to the current status of healing.

First, Be grateful I am not in a room watching cartoons, drooling, and wearing a diaper.
Second, Be easier on myself. Learning to read and write is a process. A never-ending process.
Third, Stop trying to remember yesterday and live for today.


Three goals that seem simple. Right?
I have sent them into the universe. Like seeds in a garden, I need to nurture them to get them to grow.

Thank you for reading this blog and any prayers and positive energy sent this way.


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