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Meth: a Ticking Timebomb Gone Viral

by Dr Gonzo

Rated: 18+ · Book · Biographical · #2258138

This is my blog & my hope, writing daily will help me see my progress and log supporters.

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10 Most Recent Blog Comments:

ruwth

Apr 19, 2025 at 6:36pm
In response to "The End"

Neil,

As always, I wish you well!

ruwth...

Kåre เลียม Enga

Apr 6, 2025 at 1:15am
In response to "Snake Oils of Thailand"

Yes. You need to support each other.

It might rain today or tomorrow in Udon Thani. Next Sunday they may have thunderstorms in time for Songkran. Last year it went over 40°... hopefully not this year. Very hot at night though; it's definitely summer in Isaan.

dogpack saving 4premium+

Mar 31, 2025 at 10:07am
In response to "Waiting for the Rains to Arrive"

I'm glad you are doing well.

Kåre เลียม Enga

Mar 25, 2025 at 4:16pm
In response to "Stories from the Village"

We don't know the stories tucked into the pages of an unopened book. Slowly... we learn them. Pan has stories about his family and growing up that he has only eluded to. I suspect they are the source of much pain.

Kåre เลียม Enga

Mar 22, 2025 at 3:36pm
In response to "The Fox in the Henhouse"

I could've predicted it. Not the details... but a dictator with no empathy? That was a foreseen disaster.

Learn Mandarin.

Wordsmitty ✍️

Mar 22, 2025 at 1:35pm
In response to "The Fox in the Henhouse"

Let's hope the worst doesn't really happen. It's not the US that will suffer. It's the whole world (except those with lots and lots of money).

Kåre เลียม Enga

Mar 19, 2025 at 6:31pm
In response to "Life in the Slow Lane"

One day at a time ... in the present ... more peaceful.

Selling your big bike may be interesting as I haven't seen Thais riding them. Perhaps another ex-pat would appreciate it though.

I was there for Songkran last year. I can see why it's a popular festival. April is a difficult month until the rains start up.

Kåre เลียม Enga

Mar 10, 2025 at 12:57am
In response to "Isaan Part II...The Reality of Rural Life in Thailand"

I should visit Suwannaphum but being smaller than Roi Et I doubt that it's as advanced. They have some old ruins and there's a place I could stay.

I hope to get back to Roi Et whenever I return.

Kåre เลียม Enga

Feb 26, 2025 at 10:55am
In response to "This Boring Life"

You'll be in bed soon. It's 23:49. (9 a.m. here; cold, cloudy)

I would try to be up by 8 a.m. in Udon Thani as I exercised in the morning and it usually was "warm" by 10.

I would watch TV at 20:30 and go to bed whenever.

Boring? Yes.

I would walk through the neighborhoods and sometimes take notes or photos. I noticed the small things.

Kåre เลียม Enga

Feb 19, 2025 at 5:48pm
In response to "Three Out of Five Ain't Bad"

I... haven't gone back and rated the places I stayed. But... mixed reviews. I'd gladly stay in the same place in Khon Kaen and Phimai again. I'd consider the place in Korat. I would rather not stay in either place in Mukdahan.

Honesty is important in relationships, as is communication. That said, you've crossed a few lines in Thailand. Culture is only one of them. Personally, I crossed more than a few...

February 7, 2022 at 4:13am

#1026214

Lost

It's been a month since I last made an entry, and a month is a long time in the life of an addict.

I relapsed within days of my last entry, it seemed so inevitable now...and even then. I felt it coming, and like a train approaching the station, there was nothing I could do to stop it. And so, how will I stop it the next time?

There has come a reaction to using meth which is getting worse every time I use...panic attacks that are the most frightening thing I have ever experienced. The problem is that within days, I dismiss the effect and have justified using again.

I am lost at the moment. I know what I need to do, yet I am terrified of what I might do. I am truly sorry to all those who have supported me in the past...the guilt and shame I feel right now is almost too much to bear. Believe me when I say, I still want to be free from this drug, I just don't know how.

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