This is my blog & my hope, writing daily will help me see my progress and log supporters. |
I haven't used drugs in more than six months, which has undoubtedly saved my life. I'm a Google Local Guide Level 6, with 107 reviews of businesses and restaurants over the last seven years. I have two brothers and two sisters...and of the four, only one sister who speaks to me. My right leg is one inch shorter than my left which was caused by complications from breaking my femur. As a result, I require orthopedic wedges to be placed into the soles of my shoe to help level out my hips. I was married only once and have eighteen-year-old identical twin girls (two eggs with only one placenta and amnionic sack). Until my daughters were twelve, we were as close as can be, but after dropping them off after a short holiday on the Sunshine Coast in January of 2018, I haven't seen either of them since...despite having weekend visitations approved by the court. I have a 'thing' for ellipsis and oxymorons...it's not quite a fetish, but my therapist thinks it is something we should persistently ignore. Whenever I was Intimate with a woman, I suffered from a rarely spoken about and shameful psychological condition called, Orgasm Envy. Since then, I have worked hard on myself, and now that I am healthy enough mentally to get back in the saddle (so to speak), I'm hoping that instead of envying her ability to have multiple, body shaking orgasms, I'll applaud her efforts...all whilst trying my best not to call her a lucky bitch. I am (technically) an average writer, but consider myself an above-average storyteller. IM (not so) HO. Growing up, I was often beaten and abused by my older brother. I used to think of myself as a victim but now realise if not for the harsh treatment, I wouldn't be the person I am today. When I meet people and allow them to get close, eventually I test them in some way or another...and so far, almost all have failed. And on the flip side, there have been those who say I chase people away. I won't argue with that because everyone has a right to their opinion. In battle, you would do well to have me by your side, but perhaps, not so much in life. I believe truth can bring the best or the worst out of people...and in some instances, it can do both. I didn't know what fear was, until at the age of forty-two, I brought my baby girls home for the first time. I know that soon I will meet a girl and fall in love...and I'm terrified of that happening. I have nine tattoos and both my nipple and tongue are pierced. There have been times in my life when I wished for death...and now, more than anything, I wish for life. In two weeks I turn sixty. I never was one to celebrate, but this birthday is different. Then, I can access my superannuation (401k) and my plan to help underprivileged children here in Thailand can be put into action. I'm already looking at some charities and checking if they are bonafide. I'm happier now than I have been in a very long time. I try to look at the positives of life, rather than wasting time wallowing in the negative. |