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| These blog prompts today are making me feel like a chatter box. LOL I guess that means they are good prompts. I am trying to catch up my blog. I got behind and am having a hard time catching up. The last few days I've had some brain fog as well and that doesn't exactly help. I've had some things going on in my own life too. I felt a bit at unrest spiritually. It is like I could feel the Devil attacking me. It's hard to put this into words. I prayed about it. God didn't answer me immediately. Let's just say he let me sweat it out a bit. He did eventually answer me though. In a way, he was speaking to me through my circumstances. I feel led to write about it in my blog today too. I wrote this poem based on Haggai 11, "Consider Your Ways"  . Things in my life have been a bit topsy turvy lately, so I decided to examen myself and consider my ways. There is always room to improve. I asked God if I had gotten out of his will. I thought back over decisions I had made over the last couple of years, some very difficult ones. I had done the best of my ability to stay in God's will, but I could have made mistakes. I am only human you know. One decision in particular was one of the hardest decisions to make. I was taking care of my elderly neighbor because no one else would do it, not even her own family. I admit she was quite stubborn and independent (or tried to be). She had broken a hip and slowly declined to being completely bedridden. I was exhausted running back and forth from my apartment to hers to care for her and my roommate and our dogs. I knew she was getting close to death. I was afraid I wouldn't be able to care for her like she needed as her time got closer. I had to take drastic measures to get her placed into a nursing facility. It broke my heart to have to do it. I had to give her a 2 week notice that I had to stop being her caregiver. Then I had to only give minimal help which some frowned that I did anything at all, but I couldn't make her lie in her own excrements or let her starve or go without anything to drink. I basically quit doing anything else and only visited twice a day. It took hospice and Adult protective services about another 2 or 3 weeks to get her placed. This was a very difficult time for me. She died about another 3 or 4 weeks after they had her placed. It was a very sad circumstance. It's still hard to not cry as I type this. I loved her and only wanted the best for her, but again, I am only human and have my limits. It seemed like life went downhill for me after this. I re-examined myself and the decisions I had made. I had to deal with those feelings of guilt for not taking care of her until she died. I have come to the conclusion though that I did the right thing. That was what was best for her. It was the only way that I could get her to get the proper care she needed in the end. I considered other life choices that I had made. I repented of some. I have made many mistakes and some intentional poor choices before. I even went as far as questioning my own Salvation. God revealed to me that sometimes, it isn't because of the bad decisions I make. Sometimes, he calls us to share in the suffering of other people to be there for them and a light in their darkness in their time of need. That's why I am where I am right now. That's why I am struggling. I am here to help bring some order to the chaos. I believe this is also why he led me to this Joseph Bible study. Joseph didn't suffer because he was bad necessarily, but God had a bigger plan to work things out for good for not only Joseph and his family, but also for the entire land of Egypt at that time. Jay O'Toole, this is some of what we were discussing this last Saturday. Maybe you will find a blessing in this too. 
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 Take UP Your Cross Blog Prompt: Consider a biblical character who inspires you. What qualities do they possess that you admire, and how can you emulate them? My favorite Bible character has been David from my childhood. I loved the story of David and Goliath. My dad always told the story of how I would play and act out the part of David when I was around 3 years old. He always laughed because when he asked me what the giant said, I would tell him, "Fe Fi Fo Fum". Needless to say, I got my stories confused. LOL As I got older, I learned there was more to the story. I still loved it. I learned he had become king of Israel and about his children, his sins, his struggles, his triumphs, and his music. He seems to be a very dramatic character. What resonates with me today is that God considered him a man after God's own heart. Oh, that I can stay close to God's heart! In Deuteronomy 32:10, It tells of God's people being the apple of his eye. I love the thought of that. Prayer prompt: Pray for Elon Musk. (I just feel led to pray for him today.) Dear God, I pray for Elon Musk right now. I lift him up to you. I have noticed he is in the news a lot lately. I know that your spirit is moving and working through him rather he is saved or not. That is not for me to determine. However, I know that he has his hands in the advancement of technology and a lot of things. He has a lot on his plate. He is helping President trump work to improve America's finances. I know this has caused many people to fear. I can't say I haven't worried some myself about his hand in government affairs or where all of this may be leading. You are God. You know what is going on. Your hand is in it, good or evil. I trust in you and your sovereignty. I give you praise. Even if this causes the Antichrist to be revealed, I know that your return is near. I know that all things happen for a reason and not one sparrow loses even a feather without you knowing it and even my hairs are numbered. Thank you for loving us and caring about even the minor details. Please be with Elon. Give him the strength to accomplish all you have called him to do. Keep him in good health. Protect him from evil attacks. In Jesus' name, Amen   I went on a search with my friend for a short story on a far out planet. We happened upon this item on planet, Mumsy.
Read, review, and write about this today. This short story is a pleasant one. It is full of new beginnings and possibilities.  
Write about a puppet show. This is a great topic for me. I used to write puppet shows for my church. I enjoyed it. My mother had collected a lot of puppets, especially animal puppets. Someone made a puppet show prop out of plywood and painted a scene of nature on it. The youth group would use my scripts and put on a puppet show for the entire church. We did it once a month. Needless to say, it was quite entertaining.  Prompt: Describe what home looks like for your Blog entry today. Ideally or in reality? Yikes! Just saying. I am currently living in a 4-bedroom house with no central heat and air. It is an older house, definitely in need of repairs, especially the plumbing. I am struggling to get it clean and keep it that way. There are 3 humans, 5 dogs, and 2 cats living here at the present. I am basically the only one that is cleaning and doing housework. My roommate is truly disabled. Her brother has a form of disability but is more disabled in his own mind than he is physically. He is lazy, and not the most likable person. However, Jesus thought he was to die for. I put up with it to keep peace and for his daughter so she can have a life of her own. He would trap her into being his care giver. In fact, he already tried to do so. He tried to make her live with him until he died. There is always more to a story than meets the eye, such is the case here and I won't go into all the details. She is young with 2 babies of her own to care for. She is still trying to figure out life and has a right to do so. This is why I don't like to talk a lot about my present situation. Frankly, it's embarrassing and humiliating. I don't have a lot of good to say about it. So, I try not to say more than necessary about it all. God knows all the underlying and dirty details. I am trusting in him and his purpose. However, the subject keeps coming up, so I figured I would give basic and minor details here.  |
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