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Credit goes to Norbanus for this wonderful poem. Much thanks for the gift. Nero: The Legend and Fiend To read the mind of madness, as a rule Is wrought with pitfalls leading but to grief. When Nero smiled Rome nodded as one fool, most jumping in to hide their disbelief But there were some, who understood his ways, who didn't blab while planning a new track. The story of his end goes on days. His corpus tossed into the trash out back. The gladius then sheathed, or so they say. His guards had done the job without a hitch. His broken dream of art had gone its way. His "Qualis antifex" now in the ditch. We read of his great falling from his perch, did he think that he’d left Rome in a lurch? Welcome friends! This insane, wild, and honest blog is home to my thoughts, observations, and daily musings on whatever may arise. Enjoy your stay. BLOGGER OF THE WEEK May 3, 2020 - May 9, 2020 |
4 AM Thoughts January 18, 2022 at 5:37am January 18, 2022
It is 4 AM right now. I was just woken up by my brother screaming “I’ll fckin kill you!” to my mom. He’s 19. He hasn’t become violent yet while I’ve been home, but it seems like it’s only a matter of time. Why is peace always something we’re never allowed? Apparently, what set him off this time is that he hadn’t been sleeping well that past few days and he’s had problems online, so it’s all accumulated into that. I don’t know why he yelled it. I hate... [Read more] Anxiety Fest November 24, 2020 at 12:10pm November 20, 2020
So these past few days have been “fun.” I can’t seem to get schoolwork done until the latest moment and instead of having only 2 things turned in late (by a day or a few hours) this year, I’ve had 5 or more. Last year I would have felt horrible for that but now it’s more like I don’t care. It’s great. Sarcasm, intended.
However, ignoring all of that, last night sucked. A friend of mine texted me and told me some old friends had made fun of me during ... [Read more] Masquerades November 6, 2020 at 11:10pm DAY 2912 November 6, 2020
Finally, it's Friday. What brings you joy on Friday? For me, when my kids were home, we had pizzas and binger watched movies. Now, that's it 's Vic and I we play games while listening to music. I really look forward to playing chess. So what about you?
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When Friday rolls around it usually means I have no more work so I can just relax. There isn’t anything specific I do today except possibly call Kat. Sh... [Read more] Sandwiches! November 6, 2020 at 11:09pm DAY 2910 November 4, 2020
Sandwich Day! Share your best sandwich recipe.
Well isn’t this a light prompt? I like it. Anyway, I don’t really make a lot of sandwiches but I suppose my favorite recipe is to make a oven baked chicken bites but on bread. I slice the chicken, cook it, put it on two pieces of bread with some mustard, tomato, and lettuce and then cut it in halves. It’s delicious! But I suppose I’ll give the recipe too
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Write about something you want. Pick something that you don’t necessarily need, but would make you happy simply to have.
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The line between “wants” and “needs” blur after you go beyond basic needs and items that you buy just for some pleasure, in my opinion. Then again, that’s after you go over endless possibilities and create idiotic scenarios. Ah whatever. So I’m not sure what would make me happy right now.... [Read more] Highschool October 31, 2020 at 6:19pm DAY 2905 October 30, 2020
Write about your time in high school and how it changed you.
So we all know I’m still in high school, but I’ll take a crack at this anyway. I’m a freshmen in a rural area. I’m not sure what exactly it would be like if I were at my old school where the prejudices run deep and jerks abound, but I know it’s better at this school. I still can’t be proud about who I am but I’m able to make small inferences. I recently wrote a short story ab... [Read more] What Is Hell? October 24, 2020 at 9:49pm {embed:giphy:rp3e6QBCkH1vi}
I don’t know what the fuck I’m doing here. I’m used to feeling apathetic during the day and incredibly sad at night. I’m used to regretting things and hating my younger self or the actions of the previous day. None of that is new. I know what my bad days feel like and I can take a guess at what my good days feel like. But this...this is new.
The week before my mom came home from the hospital, I went on walks a lot and didn’t want to do anything bu... [Read more] Thoughts on New Years’ Eve October 12, 2020 at 11:58pm Day 2886: October 12, 2020
Prompt: How are you going to celebrate the end of 2020?
This year has hit us with a few curveballs: COVID, murder hornets, President Trump endorsing white supremacy, Ruth Bater Ginsberg’s passing, and Pakistan and India’s war that almost became nuclear. So when New Years rolls around I plan to be at my moms with my brothers and some bubbly grape juice. We usually celebrate by watching the ball drop and I FaceTime with Kat.
I hope I can go see h... [Read more] My Autumn Love October 5, 2020 at 10:42pm Day 2880: October 5, 2020
Prompt: What is your favorite autumn comfort food
Ah, I missed these wonderful prompts. It’s great to be back writing them. So, my favorite autumn food... I think that would be my aunt’s chocolate chip cake. It’s warm, gooey and delicious! Plus, it’s really fun to make with my mom or grandmother; a sort of bonding activity since I’ve grown up baking with them. And I think that’s really all for now.
Until next time ... [Read more] I’m Tired September 24, 2020 at 12:12am September 23, 2020
I thought the next time I would be on here to blog would be spent writing about how I’m excited for Halloween or the other various things I’ve got going on, instead, I’m going to be journaling. I’m sorry I can’t be the upbeat Miranda I try to be on the newsfeed on this but right now I need this. So for a few minutes, I ask you to humor me. Please.
My mom just called in sick to work in order to take my younger brother home tomorrow. He was supposed to go... [Read more] Realizations August 13, 2020 at 3:46pm August 13, 2020
Last night I wrote an entry about my response to a prompt contest. At the time, I considered it rather terrifying and I have no doubt that the hesitations will grow once I go back to my fathers house, though that’s neither here nor there.
I am happy I wrote the entry but I’m beginning to see a pattern with what I share. I’m writing shallow pieces, useless anecdotes, and entries that all revolve around sexuality. I’m trying to say it doesn’t matter what yo... [Read more] Dreams and Fears August 13, 2020 at 4:03pm August 12, 2020
I just wrote one of the most personal pieces of my life. There is a small contest going on right now for youth writers, and I decided to enter. The prompt is this: Write about your biggest dream and compare it to your biggest fear. When I first started writing it I thought it would be pretty light, until I realized that it wasn’t the right direction for it to take, not this time. I was going to write about working in psychology and... and what? My only fear about th... [Read more] Confused Feelings August 12, 2020 at 4:37pm August 7, 2020
This week has had me feeling like someone ran over me with a truck. I just got back from doing a virtual camp with other CMT (charco marie tooth disease) youth and I missed this writing community so much. We did a bunch of activities and talked about our trials and triumphs quite a bit, but I couldn’t connect with the campers themselves.
I’m not sure why. They were all accepting and kind; quite a difference from the people in this state. I talked about Kat a ... [Read more] You asked. July 19, 2020 at 6:30pm I told that I was going to write about boycotting, and my opinions on it, but it turns out I can’t. I don’t have the energy or the drive. There’s been a few prompts over the last week that have really interested me, so I’d get to thinking about what I would write, and how I would word it, but when I got down to it, I just didn’t feel like it.
I would compare the feeling to seeing your favorite dessert or clothing item and feeling excited you get to buy it, so you go to the check ... [Read more] The Bible July 10, 2020 at 7:43am Prompt: Do you believe people should stand when God's word is read? Why or why not?
This should be an easy prompt...but it’s not. I do not go to church, so I’m unfamiliar with it. I outlined with in my last post. But if we were to take church out of it, then yes I would say I do think people should.
The Bible is a tricky subject for me simply because of some of the themes. I do not believe is a man’s job to help show the family the Lord, yet the Bible uses he for tha... [Read more] Riding the Happy Wave July 9, 2020 at 3:31pm Hi guys! Man, it’s been a while since I’ve done an impromptu entry, hasn’t it? Well don’t fret dear friends. I’m back! Today we’re going to be discussing three things: Kat, God, and the why of me blogging. But before we do that, just a note. I’m feeling good. I made a 100 on my biology test this morning, and since I’ve never done that in the class, I’m happy. I usually make 85s and up so this is an awesome feeling. I know it’s not a big deal to any of you, but it’s a succ... [Read more] A Dreamer’s Musing on Love July 3, 2020 at 7:04am DAY 2786 July 3, 2020
“Love doesn’t just sit there, like a stone, it has to be made, like bread; remade all the time, made new.” ― Ursula K. Le Guin
Your thoughts?
Well isn’t this an interesting prompt? I must say, I wasn’t exactly expecting it. You want to know my thoughts on love, eh? Well then dear readers why don’t we dive in.
For all of you just joining, I am a teenager. That isn’t the say I cannot feel love, it’s just to say I haven’t felt it... [Read more] A Back To The Future Letter July 1, 2020 at 11:47pm PROMPT July 1st
Write a letter to your parents from before your birth. Give them advice about how to raise you and give them a heads up about anything they might struggle with when you come into their lives.
Dear Parents,
If you are reading this letter, I hope it means you decided to think about the advice I am giving. I come to tell you about a few things, and implore you to think about your decision to have children. When you went through the procedures to have all of... [Read more] I have returned! June 16, 2020 at 11:41pm June 16, 2020
This morning I have quite a bit of good news. But before I get into that, I realized I never gave any of you an update about my grandmother and Kat, and now I shall deliver. My grandma is doing okay, and when we called on FaceTime yesterday, I was grinning like an idiot. I missed her, and I could tell she did as well. My aunt, cousin, and uncle are visiting everyday to bring her food and when she told me, her eyes lit a little and a smile tugged at the edge of her light co... [Read more] One Day June 5, 2020 at 6:10pm 48-HOUR CHALLENGE: Media Prompt
Listen to this song, One Day by Matisyahu.
The song One Day strikes a chord within me because of its message. It’s about wanting peace and love, and could not be any more correct that this is the perfect song for today.
We need to end the racism in our country, or at least confront it so we can end it one day. It won’t go away just by protesting (that’s a great way to do it though) or posting something on social media (that doesn’t ... [Read more] ¿Por qué? June 4, 2020 at 9:09pm DAY 2757 June 4, 2020
Half a century ago, the amazing courage of Rosa Parks, the visionary leadership of Martin Luther King, and the inspirational actions of the civil rights movement, led politicians to write equality into the law and make real the promise of America for all her citizens. -David Cameron
What happened to equality? How did we turn back the clock of time and commit the same horrible crimes that were a a social norm before Rosa and Martin's time? Your thoughts about wha... [Read more] On Strange Hypotheticals May 20, 2020 at 2:18pm PROMPT May 20th
If you were able to live to the age of 90 and retain either the mind or body of a 30-year-old for the last 60 years of your life, which would you choose?
Well this is an interesting prompt; it should have an easy answer but if you take a few seconds to think on it, you find it doesn’t. To the creator of said prompt, I applaud you. Oh, and here’s a cookie because cookies are brilliant: 🍪
I suppose if I lived to be ninety years old, then I would choose to have ... [Read more] The Returning May 18, 2020 at 1:52am May 17, 2020
¡Hola amigas! Yo regreso. ¿Cómo estás? Lo estoy haciendo bien, supongo.
I’m not sure if any noticed my lack of a presence on here or not, considering I still looked at what was in the newsfeed, though didn’t write in my blog or port. I suppose it doesn’t matter either way, but I wanted to write a piece now anyway.
I was thinking about college and what I want to attend when I’m eligible, and I think I have a good idea of one. I don’t quite want the reve... [Read more] Everything Went To The Dogs May 12, 2020 at 9:22pm May 12, 2020
Alright so today’s entry is more personal and less light hearted then a bloody funeral, so if that is not your delicious cup of tea then my friends, I suggest you slip out the back. Now that that is done, why don’t we start eh?
Last night I received a text from Kat that basically told me she couldn’t do it anymore; where it meant our friendship and anything beyond that. She told me she’d try again when she is better. So without getting that much into it, I lef... [Read more] Useless Views May 9, 2020 at 12:16am PROMPT May 8th
🍿Take a look at this list of values: https://liveboldandbloom.com/wp-content/...🍿
Pick your top ten values and rank them based on how important they are to you. Then, write about the values you chose and if any have changed throughout your life.
Alright, before I dive into the useless things I look for in people or this screwed up world, I want to add this. I saw a couple of bloggers saying virtues are different than values, because values are more sel... [Read more] Demons + Old Memories May 8, 2020 at 5:29pm Hi guys! I’m back. I need to vent for a second.
So I just texted an old friend telling them I was sorry for ending the friendship and so on. It happened about a year or so ago now but hey, better late than never I suppose. She said she forgives me and that yes, we can talk. I would have been okay with not talking, I just wanted to get that off my chest. The thing is, we’re very different people. She’s into romance, is disgusted by the LGBTQ+ community, and doesn’t understand psyc... [Read more] Beliefs May 8, 2020 at 2:11am PROMPT May 7th
Start your entry today with the words: “I used to believe...”
I used to believe in:
Goodness. I always believed people would keep their word and that they were relatively good. I know that many people in this world are good but there’s still a lot that aren’t. I’m tired of promises being made and then broken. Why make any if you have at least a small notion that you can’t keep them?
That God wasn’t real. For context, I live i... [Read more] The Eye of the Beholder May 8, 2020 at 3:35pm PROMPT May 6th
Write about an object you own that has negligible monetary value, but is priceless to you.
My grandmother has given me a few priceless things over the years. Oh, they aren’t worth maybe $10, but I like them. She’s my mother’s mom and has been all over the world. Her travels have taken her to almost every country, and her stories would wow anyone. But a few things she’s bestowed upon me are:
A bright red and yellow small money pouch. It’s beautiful. S... [Read more] Mere Gibberish May 8, 2020 at 2:08am Day 2727: May 5, 2020
Prompt: Use these words in your blog entry: rain, clouds, valley, taco, turkey, smartphone, and wind.
Fair Warning: This isn’t very good. It was just a challenge I took to see if I could write nonstop for a few minutes.
El valle de la muerte, the locals called it, the Valley of Death. Whispers of hauntings and salacious murders were always spoken about the beautiful place, as if speaking it out loud would make the spirits arise.
At night, wh... [Read more] My Cooking Skills May 4, 2020 at 10:30pm PROMPT May 4th
Describe your cooking or baking ability. What was the last thing you cooked/baked that you we’re proud of? Are you a recipe-follower or freestyler?
A few days ago I made some cookie-cake sandwiches.
It was red velvet cake made into cookies with chocolate icing in the middle. It was really good and my family loved it! But I am definitely a recipe-follower.
I like the structure it brings and it’s kind of calming.
Also I’m a complete novice in baking... [Read more] Strength May 4, 2020 at 9:49pm Day 2726: May 4, 2020
Prompt: With the new day comes new strength and new thoughts. Eleanor Roosevelt
Let this quote inspire your blog entry today.
This should be an easy thing to write about, but it’s not. One, because I have no physical strength, let alone mental; And two, because the “new thoughts” are most likely referring to positive ones and not negative. Well, I suppose I must try though. Here goes.
There are some things that make my mornings good at tim... [Read more] Best Friend and Moonlight May 4, 2020 at 9:12pm PROMPT May 3rd
What do you do you relax and unwind in the evening? Paint us a picture of your ideal relaxation.
Before I get into this I just want to say one thing. I see a lot of bloggers being positive about this whole thing (or life in general) and while commend them on this, I can’t do that. I can try, but it never ends up well in the long run. Call it God, fate, karma but being a positive person just doesn’t work for me.
Now for the prompt response. I would say ... [Read more] Characters Of A Different World May 3, 2020 at 2:06am Prompt for April 2, 2020
What one fictional character would most like to meet and talk to? Why? What would you like to ask?
I would want to meet Hermione Granger, I think. She would know so much and I could ask her “Did you really want to get with Ron?” But no. Jokes aside, I would ask her how hard was it to enter a world that you knew nothing about? To meet people who scorned you daily all because of your blood?
The reason is a simple one really. That world is a paralle... [Read more] May Flowers May 3, 2020 at 5:29pm Considering I’m getting a bit heavy with my writing, I decided to lighten the mood with my take on today’s prompt.
Day 2724: May 2, 2020
Prompt: The Flowers of May
The flowers of May,
they bloom with quite
intoxicating, heavenly
and colorful petals.
Their beauty is known
far and wide in the nations
we all call our wonderful home.
Orange, yellow, pink,
blue, red, white, green;
these are the flowers
that bloom in the
month of May.
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What do you wish more people knew about you and why?
I wish more people knew I don’t like contact. Yes, when it is a particular person, I do like it. They are comfortable and I enjoy hugs from them. Like my best friends. But when I shy away from other’s touch, it is not because I don’t like them or something happened, I just find it uncomfortable.
I don’t know what to do when they try and hug me; whoever the person may be is still practically a s... [Read more] New Skills April 28, 2020 at 3:58pm
Tues. April 28th Prompt
Have you learned anything or acquired any habits during this quarantine/lockdown that you plan on keeping with you and/or practicing once it is lifted?
Yes, I actually do have some new skills from this. I’ve started to cook now, and I’d say it’s going okay. I now know how to make scrambled eggs, hamburger helper (don’t judge, I’m a newbie at cooking), tacos, and delicious cookie bars. It’s not much, but I’m happy with it. When I go back to ... [Read more] Apathy and Ice-cream April 28, 2020 at 3:43pm {bitem:#1786069}
Mon. Apr. 27th Prompt
What do you think you'd be doing today if this pandemic had never happened?
Warning: This is widely unorganized.
Let’s see... yeah, I would be doing nothing. Guys, this whole pandemic is centered around “panic” and “what-would-you-do” and I am doing neither. Apathy is something I’m quite familiar with, it’s just taken hold more nowadays. I want to care, I do, but I can’t.
Death happens every day and while i... [Read more] My feelings on COVID-19 June 6, 2020 at 5:35pm {bitem:#1786069}
Sun. April 26th Prompt
How has your idea of lockdown/quarantine changed since the beginning of this month?
Aight. So. Get ready for a tired rant. Ready? OKAY let’s go!
My feelings on the lockdown haven’t changed since the beginning of this month, or from when it began. It doesn’t bother me and my limit for caring is gone. See, I’m still in school, but not old enough to have a license; therefor I have no where to go. I can’t exactly do things in a nor... [Read more] Hiding from People Prompt April 27, 2020 at 10:49pm
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April 25th Prompt
Describe the best place to hide in your home (closet, bed - under it or the covers, basement, attic, behind the couch, in a cupboard, etc.), and why it is the best?
I think the best place to hide in my house is my closet. I say that because I have a bunch of stuffed animals in there and I could hide myself, as well as be comfortable. If there was a murderer in my house then I would probably go hide in the small jacuzzi outside in our backyard (shh ... [Read more] Amor May 1, 2020 at 2:57am Writing.com Prompt: “I like you crazy," he said
I don’t think this is good enough to go into my port, so I’ll probably just leave it here. I may make this into a scene in a stupid short love story I’ve been writing for close to a year; if only if I can get my muse to talk to me again. I made her mad I think, ignoring her and all that. This has problems, and I kind of hate it but it’s 3:30 in the morning. Which is to say, I don’t know what this is, and I blame it on lack... [Read more] Strange Is Me April 24, 2020 at 5:53pm So before I begin my midnight post, I want to say a giant thank you to If you’re new to my blog or just passing through, GO READ HER WORKS! They are very good. Now to what we’re discussing today: dating.
Because I’m bored and it’s late and I should probably be asleep, I’m going to write. HI! Yeah. Anyway dear friends, how do you feel about dating? Me personally, I have no idea. I’ve only really dated one guy and it didn’t last long (but the outcome later was good. Hello God... [Read more] Writing Dilemma April 21, 2020 at 10:26pm Alrighty so the newbie’s back. Small rant. I apologize in advance. And yes I know I should probably post this to the newsfeed. I don’t care. That looks attention seeking and ahhh no. ANYWAY. Story time.
My query for the day: what do I do on my Introduction work? I had one review that told me things I can improve on, which I greatly appreciate, and another which misinterpreted the meaning of said short story. The only problem is the other reviews. It’s not many, but it creates a dilem... [Read more] My Birthday April 20, 2020 at 12:54am So today is my birthday. I’m finally 15. I didn’t want to submit this to the newsfeed because I’m a bit uncomfortable with that type of attention. I don’t know, I’m weird My mother and I lit two candles for my sisters this morning, and said a few words. I hope they were looking down and grinning. Oh and some of my family texted me happy birthday messages. I find it interesting how some people remember while others forget. It doesn’t bother me Just a random thought of mine.
I... [Read more] The Fragile Existence of Humans April 17, 2020 at 3:25am Nihilism :
(Noun)
Meaning extreme skepticism; maintaining that nothing in the world has a real existence.
My memory is quite hazy, but my best friend and I had a conversation a few weeks ago about life after death. She asked if I would rather be remembered or forgotten and afterwards, it turned into a debate. My answer to the sudden and interesting question: I would rather be remembered. She however, would feel much more comfortable being forgotten.
To her, being remembered meant h... [Read more] Tonight, and Forevermore April 16, 2020 at 11:45pm Someone once asked me, “If you’re bleeding, but your lips proclaim otherwise, who are you deceiving?” My answer, a child’s answer, confidently told, “The other person of course.” But as my own lips proclaim false happiness, I must shake my head at my younger self.
I talk to my friends and tell them that I am fine when they ask, because as long as that is portrayed, no one will suspect anything else. The text, it flashes read, and soon becomes lost in the sea of useless conversati... [Read more] Midnight Ramblings April 15, 2020 at 5:18am In blog, she posted her entry to the 30-Day Blogger entry for yesterday and found myself relating to it. Maybe I shouldn’t, I am young, relating just means I haven’t yet experienced enough.
Though on my thoughts of commenting, I don’t really comment where it matters, on other author’s blog posts. I don’t say much because there is fear of rejection; where that tiny voice goes, “You are nothing to them.”
So when you take a girl who no longer cares, and add in the number... [Read more] Afternoon Musings May 3, 2020 at 5:28pm The point? There is no point.
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When I began to write on this particular page a few weeks ago, I thought I would be using this as nothing more than a way to write more prompts and get better at writing. Yet, that is not the case. Oh, my first few entries have been blog prompts yes, a way to get my foot in the door, but I do plan on diverting that. There’s a simple reason. Really, there is.
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April 5th Blog Entry
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You get to pick three people- living or dead- to be quarantined with. But...in order to pass time, you have to play Monopoly. Who wins? Who cheats? Who cries? Who flips the table, sending pieces flying everywhere? You choose the players and how they see the game through its finish.
I would pick my sisters, who are both flying high in Heaven right now. You see, they we... [Read more] An Introverts Perspective on COVID-19 April 27, 2020 at 10:51pm April 1st Blog Entry
How are you trying to stay socially close to others while #SaferAtHome and physically quarantined?
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So basically how am I annoying my family more than I already am and texting my friends more? For the most part I’m not really doing anything. My friends have been silent and my family has been at each other throats almost every second. I don’t want to interact anyway. But I’m doing these competitions so I guess that counts as being social co... [Read more] March 30 Blog Challenge April 27, 2020 at 10:50pm I must start this off with these words—if only to provide context when this fails—I have absolutely no idea what I’m doing. And fair warning: I am not positive most days. I am sarcastic, pessimistic, aloof, but not positive.
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If we are supposed to be honest then I suppose that is the only easy part. I don't usually disclose my feelings on certain matters because I deem it useless or weak but we're writers, and if you can't show some part of yourself... [Read more] |