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These are my thoughts and ramblings as I forge my way through this thing they call Life. I blog with these groups:     "Blogging Circle of Friends "  [E] 
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Blog City - Day 1666 Prompt: Jeff Vandermeer, in his Wonderbook, talks about a “scar” or a “ghost of a scar” or a “splinter”, which exists in a writer’s background that inspires or causes him to begin to write. In his case, it was his parents’ divorce when he was a child. What other kinds of “ghosts of scars” can inspire the urge to write? Do you know of any real-life examples of it? For me in was the breakdown of my parent's marriage. The vibrancy of the emotions, the tension. Life began to move in slow motion and I, even at seven, could feel the tension - it could be cut with a knife as I watched my parents go through the motions of fixing the evening meal. I remember writing those first stories of happy families with perfect children as a way to compensate for all that we were lacking. In my own small way I was internalizing the breakup and thinking 'if only I was more perfect' things would be alright. It does not matter what parents tell their children, the children will always take some responsibility in the breakup. How could I not, when stories of their past included parties they never had after I was born. My dad's life seemed unchanged by my birth, but my mother spent more time with me. I have come to learn that they were very different people not fully suited to each other. I was a product of their union, and they both loved me, but they could not sustain their own love. Teenage angst could also be a time when "ghosts of scars" can emerge. Life changes then and so do the expectations on you as you move into adulthood. Learning to navigate the world of relationships brings heartache and pain. No one makes it through unscathed. Some of us turn to writing as a way of making sense of the situation. I wrote a lot of poetry while I was in high school. I also wrote stories of my cherished grandparents who were a strong underlying presence through my life at that time. Life events, particularly the more darkly emotional ones, like breakups and divorce, have also added to the cauldron of my life experiences and each thing adds to the broth that is my life. All those things marinate and compost themselves into something far richer and nutrient dense than they were initially. Writer's live lives. They experience and turn their hardships and scars into stars - moments when universal connectedness can be achieved. We see the deeper essence of the experience and we share that... hoping our words and stories open up the moments and bring light and understanding to others. Reaching others - that is my goal and how I gauge my success. |
Blog City - Day 1658 . Prompt: Sources say that our brains are hard-wired to fear creativity, and vice versa, creativity thrives on what the brain fears most. What do you think? Can this be true for you? Interesting concept. I have been reading several books about creativity and resistance. Steven Pressfield's The War of Art and Deb Norton/s Part Wild. Both look at how we resist the creative process and tend to meet with resistance when we are getting close to an something that matters to us. The War of Art talks about how whenever we get close to something that needs working on we meet with resistance. Norton's approach in Part Wild is to use that creative resistance and make it work for us. Both books make a lot of sense to me. Resistance is the embodiment of fear. Plain and simple. We can be the most creative when we enter into the realm of resistance and see what it wants us to hide from... in doing so we come to a place that needs our time and attention. Norton says "Terror and exhilaration are the flip sides of the same emotion - they both light up your nervous system to let you know something significant is happening." Whenever we hit fear or resistance we know there is good information there. She goes on to say, and I found this echoed in Elizabeth Gilbert's Big Magic, that "Because it cues our creativity... creativity is stronger than fear." You just need to be brave enough to access it. I was listening to something on Facebook yesterday and the woman talked about how we are like Little Red Riding Hood. Doing what is expected and running into difficulty if we go of the path.... but that limits us and it limits our ability to be creative as well. She said we must stop seeing ourselves at the sweet little red riding hood and be the wolf.... take that fear by the guts and see what we can make of it. This might be a stretch, but the woman giving the speak was quite eloquent. If I can find the link I will add it here.... I say we step up and face the fear. Enter into it and see that it really nothing more than a smoke screen trying to block our creative endeavours. Go for it! Press on and find the magic! |
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