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 |   I am finding my stride and living life in a world filled with chaos and change. |
  And here's my Simpsonized picture...  and my daughter, Baba. Isn't she cute?  Actually, I need to upload the whole family, just for the heck of it sometime. Then, I'll always have them right here with me.  This journal forced itself into being because I loathe, no, I mean, I love to write. It is a struggle to state what I am thinking inside so a daily blog is just what I need. Not because I want to, I must. My thoughts are begging to be heard before they are lost in the caverns of my mind.  |
Entry 3: My loved one is...wow! Where do I start in talking about my loved ones? I must start with my husband, who, if he were not in my life, I wouldn't even be where I am today, and that's the truth! My husband and I have been together since we were teens. Thirty-four years (actually 35 years since we were engaged for one year prior to our marriage in 1991), and our lives are so intertwined together I couldn't see it without him. My husband is the glue to hold our family together. Our children love the fun times that my husband created for them. He is the "fun" and spontaneous part of our marriage. He is the one who will do an unplanned trip to another amusement park just to see the smile of glee on the kids faces. Or he is the one who will create a work of art or a silly song to sing with them, all the while to bring joy to them. Now, I seem to leave myself out of this joy but I can assure you, he’s not missing me at all. My husband is keenly aware of my presence and what brings me joy, elicits laughs or giggles, or makes my heart burst with love for him, and I just love this about him. He is amazing and definitely the reason I succeed in my life. Next, our kids. God blessed us with two beautiful kids - a boy first, and many years later, our girl. It seemed as if this was not in the cards for us since it took so long for her to appear but I am glad when God chose to send her to our lives. Our son is a joy to us and we marvel sometimes at the intelligence, the handsomeness, the height that neither one of us had, God bestowed on him. He’s been a joy in our lives and a consolation through the years when it seemed we only would have one child. God thought it best many years after we were calmer and much more appreciative of our lives together, to send our surprise daughter to us unawares. I discovered when I was working a job that was highly stressful to send our daughter to us. I didn’t know the signs of pregnancy since it was that long for me. Our daughter, named aptly after her father, is more like her father than our son is. She is very analytical, not prone to girly things, but is one of the most loving persons in my life. My life is so blessed with so much love and conscientious people in my life that make me the person that I am. |
For the day 2 entry, the question asked, "What was an earth shattering Life and Death situation that took place in your life? What happened, and how did it change you? Well, quite unexpectedly, this past summer, I experienced a shift in my world when I during a surgery, the surgeon made an error with my surgery, and I nearly passed away. I spent two weeks in the hospital fighting for my life and learned more about my spouse and my children, about the love that we have for one another during this time. This was my first surgery apart from my children's births and I had delayed any female surgeries for years, only recently deciding that I should agree to have this surgery. And once I did, not only was this surgery not normal but it grew complicated by the surgical error that nearly took my life. This rocked my life. It rocked my husband's life as he was stretched in ways and I found out what was most important in my life in a matter of days. I found myself regarding my life differently once I learned I was this close to death. Fortunately, the surgeons were very motivated to work on my care. The original surgeon spent most of his days apologizing for this mistake, even though I never asked him to apologize. I felt gratitude. I felt indebted to my God for keeping me here a bit longer. I felt more love for the goodness my husband was in my life. For our children who called me daily to ensure that I was still here. I am keenly aware of how fragile life is. Life swerved for me, and I barely survived. However, I am so grateful to be here. I am grateful for our children, for our grandchildren, who are precious to me. Life is precious to me. I am going to enjoy it and do more. |
I've been a member of Writing.com for 24 years and I LOVE this site! It is important to me to be here and I remember going through some stressful things that mark my joining the site and remind why being here is important to me. I don't know why I haven't done more with my membership than I have because I love being here, and I love what can be achieved if effort is put in. Sigh It just seems that when I think that I need to start doing something more, the universe moves in such a way that I can't circumvent it. This place is great to find new people to befriend you, to review your work, or your writing, basically, to help you, if you seek out the help. I've met more people who are interested in helping another person than not here. I have seen members come and go but I think that I could not leave this site because it's now become my obsession. I sometimes take breaks away, some unintentionally, sometimes intentionally but I always return. I must return to this site because I feel tied to it. It's part of my life. I've been here a very long time and now it's longer than any other place in my life. I recently had an unexpected personal event that wrenched me from my home and placed me in the hospital. I was terrified. I wanted to write about it but I didn't have access to any devices to login to Writing.com. Now, I can talk about it. I hope that I can organize it better but I defintely wanted to post here and now, I am using the blog for the first time, in a long time. I hope it is the start of something productive. Writing.com has helped me to maintain my sanity and know, that it is always my friend that I can confide in. Thank you, Writing.com for always being here for me. |
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Thank you both for your comments! I had fun with this one...just let my thoughts run free for a bit.