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This is a collection of some of my poetry. My feelings that we all feel |
I intend to enter into here some poetry I had written during a very confused time in my life. Yes I am still writing for I am still confused. A bit more dazed now, I have been accumulating much knowledge and I am afraid in doing such I feel even more screwed up than when I first realized I've become confused. Make sense to you? No? Well, give me some of your attention and my words I give unto you to ponder upon will twist your mind, taint your brain and corrupt your soul to the point rightous dominion for all! |
I'M LOOSING MY SENSES WITH THESE EEELINGS TJ-IATIEEEL I WANT TO COME HOME TO WHAT I PERCIEVE TO BE AND HEAL ALL THE DESCEPANCIES AND TO YOU MY THOUGHTS ALL THE CASUALTIES AND TO YOU MY HEART. I SEE IT PUMPING, AND ALL THE BLOOD ON THE FLOOR. A SIMPLE PLEASURE IT WAS AND THEN I EEEL IT NO MORE. OH WHAT A MESS I MADE NOT WITH MY DEATH BUT WITH MY LIFE, I GUESS THATS THE REASON I FOUND IT SO EASY FOR ME TO DIE. I REALLY NEVER HAD ANY ACCOMPLISHMENTS. HOW THEN COULD I HAVE DONE ANY OF THIS? I TRY TO REMEMBER BUT MY THOUGHTS ARE TOO WEAK. DEAR HEAVENLY FATHER MY SOUL PLEASE KEEP MY HEART HAS NO LIFE WITHOUT BEATING. A FINAL CONQUEST. THIS A FINALITY OF SORTS WHAT MORE WOULD ANOTHER SUSPECT? MY EYES ARE WICKED, I DON'T BELIEVE, IN WHAT I DO SEE. THE BLUDGENING OE MY BODY AS IT LAYS STILL AND BEFORE ME. WITHOUT WANTING BLAME INDEED AND IN REMORSEFUL SHAME. I CAN GO ON I KNOW I HAVE NO REIGN ON THIS EARTH NO MORE PAIN MY LOVE IN DEPT, TOO COSTLY TO BE KEPT. MY SCREAMS ARE SILENCED BY A THIN VEIL SO UNFAIR NO ONE CAN HEAR MY FEELINGS I REVEAL |
HAPPINESS? MMMM YES OH YES, I DO BELIEVE, I DO BELIEVE IN ETERNAL BLISS. OH HOW PROFOUND YOU ACTUALLY DO CARE WITH ACTIONS AND WORDS OF A SOUL YOU DO BARE SO NAKED, SO OPEN, AND SO HONEST, A REFRESHING EXPERIENCE. NOT CLAIMING OF YOUR INNOCENSE, BUT TRYING TO DENY MY OWN IGNORANCE. YOU ARE GOOD, YOUR VERY GOOD, NOT IN THIS GAME, THAT'S NOT WHAT I MEAN THOUGH WINNING I KNOW IS WHAT YOU HAVE ACHIEVED WHAT I MEAN, IS YOUR GOOD MMMM VERY GOOD TO ME LETTING ME BELIEVE JUST WHAT I WANT TO BELIEVE. SHOWING ME YOUR WAYS YET LETTING ME MAKE MY OWN MISTAKES. TO STAND BY YOUR SIDE OR NOT. YOU CARE AND YOU HAVEN'T FORGOT. YOU'VE DECIDED ON YOUR OWN FATE MADE YOU OWN MINDS DECISIONS. LOOKING AND SEEING IS OF NO USE IF YOU DON'T TRUST IN YOUR OWN VISIONS. |
HA! YOU THINK THIS IS SO HARD ON ME? YOU SHOULD SEE IT THE WAY THAT I CAN SEE. MY EYES ARE WIDE OPEN AND I DON'T TURN MY HEAD WHEN SOMETHING UGLY COMES ABOUT FULL OF DREAD. NO, I CAN LOOK THAT DREADFUL THING RIGHT IN IT'S EYES. WITHOUT THE FEAR OF BECOMING HYPNOTIZED. BY THE REFLECTIONS SHOWN TO ME OF MY LIFE. I AM PROUD OF MY WORKS THOUGH SOME AIN'T RIGHT, I KNOW THE WORKS OF MY INNER BEING, THEY ARE GOOD, I KNOW MY THOUGHTS AND MY BELIEVING MY TRUST IN WHAT I CONSIDER TO BE WRONG OR TO BE RIGHT. NO ONE KNOWS THE SILENT IDEAS I CREATE INSIDE. OF MY OWN CAPABLE MIND. WITH A STRENGTH MORE POWERFUL THAN YOU WILL NORMALLY FIND. I AM NOT TO TELL YOU ALL THAT I THINK... SECRETS UNKNOWN SO YOU CAN ONLY GUESS, WHAT IT IS THAT GOT ME INTO THIS MESS. WAS IT ME ALL ALONE? OR DID I HAVE HELP FROM THE MISERY OF OTHERS AS I TRIED, TO GIVE TO THEM SOME KIND OF HOPE TO HOLD FOR THEMSELFS INSIDE! |