Selah // Something Witty

Arising, maybe. Hopefully.

Date: 07.23.19 -- Day 117 (The Final Day...for this blog)
Music: "Exurgency" / Zoe Keating

So it's been a minute. Hello.

It has been an eventful past four months since I last wrote here. Many things have changed for me, although I am still very much the same. My health has declined a bit, but still I have changed. I have begun the journey of acceptance. Acceptance of what my life has become because of my illness. It is realizing that in order to survive, I must go through this process of putting too heavy of things down and picking up some hard truths and new joys. This has been a painful yet cathartic experience. In a way, it is mourning -- my life before, the paths I had wanted and diligently planned to take, the things I would not let myself even think of. I'm still in the thick of it, grappling with what could have been tangled in the thoughts of things I thought I had to be. But it is a release too.

And goodbye.

I must create a new path for myself, and I have no idea what that looks like. For this mindset change, I've decided to start a new blog -- "\\ Exurgency // " . So this is also an invitation to pop over to my new blog page. I cannot promise anything other than it will something different from me. I still have no idea what I'm doing, but I've decided to be more honest about my failures. I'm going to try and removed my expectations from my writing. I'm going to give myself some slack while I try to piece myself back together. It'll be raggedy ride, but you're welcome to come along if you so wish.

If, for some reason, this is the end of the journey for you and me, dear reader, thank you for stopping by. Thank you for taking the time to step into my thoughts, even if it was only a quick glance. I appreciate you reading my haphazard posts and rambling playlists. And as the saying goes, I hope that the road rises up to meet you and the sun shines warm upon your face. And should we be so lucky...

...may we meet again.

BOOK

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