Life through my Eyes

GOD DOESN'T need me yet!

Since my last post, something happened to me and I have been recouping from it. It has been a very nerve-racking couple of weeks. On June 10 at 7:22 am I was awakened by my landlord with a text confirming that the gas company would be out to check my house out for carbon monoxide. My smoke alarm had been going off all weekend. I got up and dressed to let him in. I figured it would be around 8 before he would arrive. I had about 5 minutes so I sat down to collect myself.

You know that feeling when you first wake up you still have cobwebs in your head. It wasn't 5 seconds after sitting down. I started gasping for air with sharp pains starting in the center of my chest. The more I tried to breathe the sharper the pain. Thinking about the carbon monoxide I headed for the front door to get fresh air. Swinging the door open with my left hand, still holding my chest trying to catch my breath, I start for the screen door. I look up as I open it and see the man walking up. He stops and notices that I'm having trouble as I bend over grabbing my chest.

"Ma'am, are you ok?" I shook my head no. The look on his face told me that he saw the panicked look on my face. He reaches for the door to help me. "Do you need me to call for help?" I shook my head yes, still holding my chest and gasping for any breathe I could get. He stepped back and pulled his phone out and dialed 911. I went to sit down. By the time the fire department arrived I was full-blown chest pains and still couldn't catch my breath. I was trying to answer his questions. Now, mind you the fire department is 1 block from my house. They were there quickly, now the ambulance and EMT's different story, 15 minutes out. I'm not going to go into great detail on the rest. I'm tired already and need to head to bed. I will give you the short version.

This has been a very hard year for my health, I'm in great need of prayer. We all know that when more than one pray in agreement God moves mountains. In the short of this last thing, here are my results once I left the ER, after 6 hours. I suffered from severe muscle spasms around the wall of my heart. It makes you feel like your having a heart attack. I have been to the cardiologist since and they will be running more test. I was going to let everyone know after the test were ran what happened and results. But, with my absence, I see that I have been missed. You guys really know how to show someone that you miss and love them. I'm sorry that I didn't let you know last week, but I have been recouping from it. The doctor did say that I was not a high risk for a heart attack or we would've had a different talk, surgery. He just wants to make sure that all my values and arteries are functioning well, with all the health risk I have with the auto-immune diseases.

So, God doesn't need me yet! He has great plans for me and besides, You are stuck with me for many years to come. I promise to keep you updated. It's just I haven't really felt like doing much anything. I am so far behind it's crazy, I miss reviewing, raids and most of all talking with YA'LL.

I love every one of you,