Writing about writing

The Halfway Point

We are now halfway through November, and I’m still pushing persistently forward through NaNo. I’ve reached 78.000+ and I haven’t even updated my word count of the day. It’s hard, but I’m a stubborn little bugger, and I strive to keep my average at around 5K. So far I’ve had one slip-up day, where I only wrote about 3.500, but yesterday I fought a hard battle to get it back up there. I’m a little proud of myself, actually, and I’m starting to believe that I’ll make it on time, and getting through November without dying and/or killing someone who isn’t fictional.

Killing off fictional characters is a dream come through though. Never in my entire life have I written something as violent as “Murder Michael Mayhem”, it’s insane. Once in a while I have to stop, think about how fucked up I am, and then continue with another murder. The massive amounts of sex-scenes just adds to it, I know for certain that this book belongs in the Extreme Graphic Content category.

Back when I wrote my first sex scene, about a year ago, I thought I’d die from embarrassment, and spend half the time just walking in circles (literally, I got up off the chair, and paced around the living room). I’ve gotten better though, not just in regards to content, but also handling it. Yes, it will take everything out of me to post it online, but then again, I like those scenes and I think they fit in quite nicely where I placed them. So far I’ve got maybe four or five sex scenes throughout the book, and my bet is there will be more. Not sure though, but it seems a little unlikely that I won’t cram in more.

As some may have noticed, I have removed “Swaying Between Worlds”. While I’ve been writing “Murder Michael Mayhem”, I’ve caught on to maybe 8.000.000 flaws and mistakes in “Swaying Between Worlds”, and as such, I’m going to rewrite the whole damned thing. I still think the basic idea is good, I just made too many fuck ups, for me to keep posting it in its current state. I’ve made myself a wanna be schedule, that has no dates or deadlines, just things I want to do, and what order I want to do them in.

• First I’m going to get through November, and hopefully, finish “Murder Michael Mayhem” on time.
• Second I’m going to take a well-deserved vacation, hopefully I’ll be able to relax for a week, not glancing at anything writing-related.
• Third I’m considering trying to write a story for one of the many sci-fi magazines out there. Not entirely sure about that one yet though, but I might.
• Fourth I’m going to throw all my energy into making new notes and basically rebuild everything that has to do with “Swaying Between Worlds”.
• And then finally, I’ll begin the actual writing of “Swaying Between Worlds”, all over again.

I’m looking forward to all of that, as stressful as it is to do this NaNo thing, I truly love writing the book, and I hope I get to finish it on time. Writing a short story, something I hardly ever do, sounds like a lot of fun, a challenge in its own. Diving back into “Swaying Between Worlds”, even if it does mean redoing the whole damned thing, sounds like yet another dream come true. And I guess the whole vacation concept won’t be too bad either. I think I’ll need it, if anything, I think I’ll just sleep through most of it.

But for now, all my focus goes to “Murder Michael Mayhem”. I’m closing in on the depressing part, which is killing me softly, but that’s just the way it’s got to be. Not everything can be kittens and candy, sometimes shit just goes down, and everything fucks up.

I think that’s all for now, I better go get dressed now, and go for my usual midday walk.