Writing in Snow

The Last Day of June 2018

Jalál (Glory), 7 Raḥmat (Mercy) 175 B.E. - Saturday, June 30, 2018

"The reality of man is his thought, not his material body. The thought force and the animal force are partners. Although man is part of the animal creation, he possesses a power of thought superior to all other created beings."

Abdu’l-Baha1

On this, the last day of June 2018, I contemplate the last six Gregorian months. I consider my accomplishments, and the time I've wasted. I don't think this year has been any more stressful than 2017, I know it's been less stressful than the years from 2012 to 2014. There was stress in 2015 and 2016, but it was less stressful than the years three years before. The only difference between this year and the years before, is that I've noticed how much time I'm wasting.

The question I am asking myself is "Why do I waste time procrastinating?" I suspect the answer rests in my thought mode when I go to do something. I find myself procrastinating on stuff that, for some reason, causes stress, anxiety, or fear. I've done this all my life, so I suspect part of the issue is habit. I don't think that is the entire issues, because there was a reason I began procrastinating in the first place. I believe that reason goes back to my childhood or early teen years.

Footnotes
1  Paris Talks, pp. 17-18.