The Treatment Program of Absurdity: 2

Confrontation on Homophobia

On the morning of August 3rd, 2011, during the weekly house group, Dr. Gore berated me on how I had told his housemates that Samantha was a “faggot,” after Samantha looked at me in an inappropriate manner. When I went on a rant about how I said it away from Samantha, Matt exclaimed, “Harry, when upon telling your parents about your sexual orientation, they throw you out of the house, and you live on the street; HOW THE f*** AM I SUPPOSED TO NOT BE PISSED OFF?” In which Matt stormed out of the room. Dr. Gore proceeded to tell me about how even though I feel like a victim, I ask for the animosity that I get from people. Upon the end of the group, Dr. Gore turned to me and said, “I’ve gotten animosity form both staff and students for having not thrown you out of the program for the bigoted remarks that you’ve made throughout your stay, so stop trying to make me regret my decision.”
Later that day, I asked Frank if I could meet with him to discuss why people often get mad at me for my behavior. Dr. Gore pointed out to me how when I get mad at other people, I ends up insulting people who I actually care about, and how it diminishes my relationships. The two of them then sat down and discussed how when I get angry, I should take 5 minutes to think about how my actions will not only impact the person I felt victimized by, but also the people who I truly care about.
That evening, I went into Matt’s room, and exclaimed, “Dude, I’m sorry about what I said earlier. I think it is crumby what your parents did to you, and I also see no rationality behind it. I don’t see how anyone can hate someone just for having gay thoughts, especially a parent. If my kids were gay, I’m not going to say my first response would be, ‘Oh great, I can’t wait to meet your boyfriend,’ but I know I would still love him in the same manner. I respect you no less than before I learned that you are gay, and I hope that you can forgive me,” Matt said to me, “Thank you,” and the two of us went for a long walk together. During the walk, I asked Matt, “What happened to you after you were disowned?” Mark told me about how after he was disowned, his next-door neighbor adopted him when he was 13. With the money that Mark had acquired form a civil suit against his parents, he had used it to enroll at Great Ascendency. He gave me an outline of his life, which went like this: Baseball in elementary school; Basketball in middle school; soccer in high school. I also gave an outline of my life: Sega Genesis; Nintendo 64; Xbox, GameCube, PS2; PS3, Xbox 360 and a Wii.