Shellyville Continues

His girl?

Hello Sunshine,

If I ever needed to attend church it would be today. I am a sinner. I never thought my life would get so out of whack being me. I have no idea what I am thinking or doing. I live so much in the minute.

Seriously, I think I need an intervention. I need to get my ass kicked. I need to have someone hold me accountable for my actions.

My moral compass is broken. It's not working anymore. I have lost a sense of respect for what is right with my heart. I am so easily influenced by a good time. I am the perfect party girl. I act as if I don't have a care in the world only to find out in the morning that I do.

Why can't I say no? Why can't I say leave me alone and go away forever? He whispers in my ears and I melt like a two year old.

Our life together would be impossible. He is not someone I can rely on or build a future with. Yet, he acts as if it's already written in stone. He shows up owning my heart.

God please forgive me for letting my heart and body travel to unsafe places.

Love,
Michelle