(Letters to my brothers and others) March 2005 to May 2007. |
7-30-05 It's getting too late to think. The calming of a buzz is replaced by just a buzz in my ears reminding me of sleeping just to awaken. If I had a dollar for ever dream minute left on the table when you're talking aggravation in circles I could buy the temptation to never sleep again. We need the answers, not the antedotes. Your listening expectations are underwhelming as are your words speaking little more than catchy chorus refrains echoing the aura your voice casts over your own ears. I patiently wait like chalk on a board becoming a forgotten art in your middle school years, knowing that when you be quiet your breasts won't look so hot when you lose that bra. Smokedrunk still singing just underneath you; I've forgotten our names and what we just fought about but I still know every word in this song. If this pen wrote a little smoother, I'd jot them all down for you just so I'd have something to say. But you're talking forever like your mouth's on speed replay to ears that hear words going in one side, out the other and wrapping a mask 'round my face of your thoughts. Clearly now all I see is you. One rotten lifelong weekend judgement is all it must take for you to unbury our dead and parade our unliving, decorating our time with skeptic inquisition and hesitant intrusion. Love me, just love me just love me for all that I am and what little I have and let me be all you want me to be. Then we can sleep and all will be well 'til the next time you open your mouth. |