Wondering about my Wanderings

Achey breaky heart

I wake up and my body feels the effects of exercising a bit too much. It also aches for my wife being gone back to work. I did not realize how much she had been doing to make my life stable and comfortable. In a few minutes I go to church with all this in mind. I still write little if anything at all. I pray that I will find the will to live by making my writing more of a priority than it has been of late. I am seeing the effects of grief. I miss mom so much that I find myself doing things to take away pain. I am forever on my kindle, which was her own escape when her disease was at its worst. God be with me. Help me rekindle the flame that leads me closer to you. Take away the part of me that wants to hurt, as if punishment is the only way to get closer to mom.