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How I deal with depression

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Me:

You see, I need affirmation. Views remind me there's someone out there. Thousands of views of my blogs, poems, writings...

"I AM WHAT I AM" doesn't seem enough some days.

1. Affirmation.

I went to the market today. I washed out my clothes so I wouldn't have twice as many dirty ones tomorrow.

Mundane chores and simple routines.

2. Getting out of bed.

I went to Pali super market and bought milk and chocolate. I had two cups of coffee for breakfast. I ordered a peach drink at lunch.

3. I treat myself.

Today I met a young woman from North East China. She's a traveler. Has seen most of Europe. A total delight. Plus, she's lived in Norway (two years in Oslo)! She even speaks Norwegian.

4. I meet people.

I was homeless for over two years (2004-2006). I was suicidal only once in my life (April 29, 2003 ... Paxil didn't help and may have made it worse). I went numb in the summer of 1986. I couldn't stop shaking until Kevin held me (1979). I was totally devastated in Costa Rica and almost mute (1974). I was shocked by two deaths and a college culture I couldn't cope with (1972). I was withdrawn as a child and youth (especially 1963). Each time I thought it couldn't get worse.

5. I have been through this before and survived.