I am not happy about this milestone. My dad lived till 87 and my mom died from cancer at 65.. I have maybe 3o years left. I can't think of anything to brag about. It's just a big waste. As I've said before in previous chapters, I have no plan. I don't even want to have kids. Most of the people I've grown up with are divorced or in prison or dead. They wanted to have kids and they got-em in spades. A girl I was smitten with Liz Darling got married and had a daughter and got divorced and raised her daughter as a single mother. Liz is a nurse and her daughter is married now. I don't know if the daughter has kids.. Just another milestone. A buddy of mine Chris Warren told me his friend drove his pick up to the beach and shot himself in the head. Chris had been through a nasty divorce and had loss everything he'd worked for. He told me his friend was in a similar situation when he suicided at 56. I told Chris not to beat himself up and keep plugging away. Chris quit his job and I haven't heard from him 2 years. I hope he didn't do it, like his friend. As far as I can tell; this is all there is. I like to watch movies and have some fun. That isn't all I have to say about my life. I cared for my mom, when she couldn't clean or dress herself. That was 5 years of my life that I think I did some good. Mom was very grateful .. She and dad were afraid a nursing home would take all their savings. This was my introspective period in my writing. The result is what you read here. Okay, I'm not Yeats! But, I think, therefore, I am writing! Jesus, some people tick me off. My surviving sister never has anything positive to say. She's pissed, because I'm writing about our dirty secrets.. So freaking deal with it! I'm not a monster. I'm just different.. Abby normal :) This blog is a bit chaotic and that's me all over-ah! Happy Birthday in a little while.. I'm so freaking happy! I shit my pants! ^ + # V |