♥"JJ"♥

Mike

A New Beginning

My mind grows weak, poisoned with stress.
Like a dying star, my will and desire fades.
Tears flow freely, the salt staining my cheeks.
I’m so tired, wanting to embrace sleep, but cannot.

Inside rages a war of emotions, tearing at my soul.
The light inside is extinguished, replaced with pure black.
No longer do I care about life, its meaning forever lost.
My heart is colder than polar winds, frozen and empty.

Darkness has enveloped my very being, shrouding me in despair.
Hell is here on Earth, inflicting its demonic pain on my psyche.
I seek an end to the suffering, a way to erase the torture.
Over and over I wonder, “Is there no other way?”

Why must death be the only cure for my ills?
Why can I not find the strength to overcome the evil?
My faith has been lost, and with it the hope for better tomorrows.
I don’t want to take the Reaper’s hand, but I need the pain to end.

Gazing upward, with weapon in hand, I pause for just a moment.
An outline of an angel, its light, bright and strong, appears before me.
A faint, but soothing voice speaks to me, telling me to stay.
I shout back, stating my need to find the peace I crave.

I have been to the edge of insanity, my thoughts clouded and dark.
Suddenly, a rush of warmth overcomes me, and I feel my mind relax.
The darkness has been removed, and a new light is ignited inside.
This Guardian Angel has eased my soul, filling it with peace.

I hear the voice again, though this time it sounds very familiar.
It is the voice of my late Grandfather, assuring me that all will be well.
Staring at the weapon in my hand, I quickly toss it to the ground.
No longer did I need it to vanquish my suffering, or my empty heart.

Hope has replaced doubt, and my faith, once lost, has been restored.
The River Styx will not be crossed on this memorable night.
There is a fresh road ahead, and I now have strength for the journey.
I have been blessed, fortunate enough to receive a new beginning.

This was also written by Mike and permission was given to use this for this project alone
Thanks so much Mike!

"Hello, JJ, my name is Mike, and I too know what it is like to have battled depression. I suffered through it several times, and it certainly was not easy to overcome, but it can be done, I assure you. If you have a positive support system, and your good friend Kevin seems to fill that role quite nicely, you will have a much easier time combating the emotional darkness that depression inflicts upon you.

You are not alone. These pieces that I have included here will hopefully lift your spirits, and allow you to see that someone else has found their way past the darkness, and leads a much happier, content life. I wish you the best, and hope that you too will someday be able enjoy life to its fullest. Take care, and keep pushing forward to better days ahead."

Mike