Captains Journal

I Don't Know

if anyone actualy reads this I will be surprised really I will be I feel I'm just typing this for myself now but who knows maybe someday someone will read this and know who wrote it and maybe not I dont care right now I just need to type this one word at a time like I have always done as a poet, and a song writer.

I feel I'm becoming someone else lately not sure who or what but I feel myself changing and not sure how long it will be before I know who or what I truly am not sure if I'll even like the answer for what I've seen lately isn't good I'm a little grumpy and pissy some days very happy and happy-go-lucky others maybe I'm just gonna be a slave to my emotions like I guess you could say I already am but I just don't know if it's the way I wanna go somedays I'd rather be emotionless completely numb to the world unable to feel pain, misery, sadness, hatred, anger, joy, happiness, courage, cowardness, sympathy.....

But for now I'm Gonna be a slaveto my own mentality atleast I'm the one who rules over me and no one else.

I may not know alot of things but I do know one thing I'm not going to stop never going to bow down and never going to f***ing give up again I did once but never again this time in my life may be weird and difficult but hell I'm gonna see this through so one day I can live my dreams and live to fight for what I beleive in for once.

And I hope no one out there ever gives up either.

Thank you for reading my friend wether I know you or not and goodbye for now hope one day we may get to meet.

Sincerly- PoeticFox (aka Foster321, Sarge Darkfold)