Who Am I?

SHHHH,

If my family figures out I'm on here, they will want something!

LOL

I know, I've been MIA for 3 months.  I didn't even know some lovely person gifted me with 3 months of an upgrade...a month a go...so thank you for that, whomever you are!

I really want to be positive but I"m not feeling real positive.

I'm in a mood.

It's not a good one.

I know I have everything to be greatful for...but right this minute I'm just not there...and I don't know why.

Could it be the rockiness of hubby's job..not to mention the butthead who is making his life not so much fun there?

Could it be the attitude and snipeyness of my 12 year old daughter, who thinks the world is supposed to run just for her? 

Could it be that the stress of not knowing what's going on with my very sweet but extremely hyperactive six year old has finally taken it's toll?

Could it be that the never ending homework assignments, due dates, and the like have worn my very thin rope to a frazzle?

Yes.  and No.

I just have a bad attitude and need to adjust it.  I've let all of those things get deep inside and make me want to fall apart.  I'm tired, I'm frustrated, I'm frazzled, I want to have some fun.  I miss having some peace and quiet---and I will get a little of that after I finish this semester of school--about 2 weeks before my children get out.

Probably the biggest issue on my plate is my little man.  He was diagnosed a year ago with ADHD.  It's not ADHD--at least not ADHD alone.  On May 4th we will be going to Riley Children's Hospital to see a group of specialists...to rule out autism.  I don't think he's autistic--I've known other children diagnosed with autism and even for those who are higher functioning....he just doens't seem to fit........but I'm pretty sure it's not just ADHD...too many sensory issues.  He never stops....and it's never quiet.  He chews on his clothing...ALL THE TIME...says it helps him to concentrate.  He's emotional, must have routine....doesn't like noise unless he's making it.  This semester has been tough because of all of  that.  His teacher--sees no problems.  She's pretty sure it's all my problem--they see nothing..not even the ADHD  but he's only there 2.5 hrs a day...and......of course, he's on meds...but they don't seem to work at home...another story....cause I could be here for 10 years if I start on all that.  He's doing well academically and for that I'm greatful.  Extremely.

I think I'm going to go sit on my porch swin gand try to relax.  Then I"ll try to get back in here and catch y'all up on us...and catch up with all of you.

God is Good. 

hugs and blessings
Vicky