These are my rambles, my thinking as I grow younger and younger. |
EASTER. Today is Good Friday. I have changed my lifestyle this past week, and tried to be present in the moment. I have been out INto the world and feel more a part of the world. I am thankful so much. I recently read my nephew's (who I raised as a son) blog: www.societyofthesecondchance.blogspot.com/ There as I read from the first post until now, I came to know the horrow that my child faced these last 2 years as a full blown alcoholic at age 28, for at least 10 years. The shock of his finally asking for help - and his admission into Cottage Hospital in Santa Barbara, California was minor compared to the attending and specilist doctors stating that my boy had only a 20% chance to LIVE. 20% just to SURVIVE. This information was only revealed through this PUBLIC blog. I had known that he had addiction and drinking issues, and the death of his Mother was a horrible blow to him. After her passing I found him weeping outside the Hospice and saying "I'm just a G..D..drunk". "I've never done anything good". But, after the funeral, the Memorial celebration months later, he was back bartending in Frisco. His Mother told me years go he was a drunk. My solution was to go kidnap him and throw him into rehab. His blog discusses when and how he finally surrendered and wished for a new life. Read it if you want to read a wrenching, yet spiritual diary of a young man becoming a new person inside and out. More to follow............ |