Once Upon A Shadow, Deep Inside A Dream

I was just wondering

I was just wondering,
Have You ever felt this way?
Have You ever failed this way?
How could You possibly understand my pain?
I sit here and weep,
As I remember all You took from me,
There shouldn't be anymore to take,
But You pull at my heart again and again,
And You take it all upon Yourself.
I sit here and weep,
As You take me in Your arms,
And reassure me of Your love again,
I was just wondering,
How can You love me this way today?
I sit here and weep,
Inhaling shame with every breath,
Reliving the past with every heartbeat,
Knowing my worth in Your eyes,
Is greater than my worth in my own.
I sit here and weep,
I was just wondering,
If You mean it,
If You mean every word You speak,
If Your grace will continue to carry me?
I know You do, I know it will, I know You are,
I sit here and weep,
I weep for the life I wasted away,
For the days I never came to You,
The nights I hid my face from You,
Knowing no one loved like You loved me.
I sit here and weep,
And I wonder at the flaws in me,
I think of the price You willing paid,
Despite my faulty ways and sinful haze,
You rescued me and picked me up and held me,
As I sat there and wept.

I was just wondering...
I was just wondering...

How is it possible to be loved like this?
How is it possible to be touched like this?
Touched by the tenderness of You,
In the thorny parts of me.
I was just wondering...
Could I see Your face, rest in Your grace?
Can I draw near to You again?
Can You break me so that You can mend me?
In Your presence can I drink from Your wellspring?
I was just wondering...
I was just wondering...

"Come to Me,
I will give you rest,
I will take your pain,
I will cleanse you again.
Come to Me,
I will make you whole,
I will heal your soul,
I will quench your thirst.
Come to Me,
I am waiting for you,
I am drawing you nearer,
Because I desire you.
Come to Me,
Feast at the feast I prepared,
For you I have spared no cost,
You are My heart's desire.
Come to Me,
Breathe in Me,
Abide in Me,
Love Me."

I was just wondering...
As I sit and weep,
How Your balm so sweet,
Pours over me, healing me.
How is it possible?
That You would fill this need,
Before I knew its depth,
That You would heal the wound,
The wound that man had made?
How is it possible?
How is it possible?
I was just wondering...

"Sing to Me,
Lift your voice,
Sing to Me,
Make known your love,
Accept My healing flood,
Sing to Me."

I was just wondering,
Now I sit in Your presence,
Singing in Your presence,
Songs of praise and love and joy.
Now I know that You took the cost,
Took the pain, the sin, the loss,
Upon Yourself to set me free.
I was just wondering,
What I can give to You,
What I can do to show You,
How grateful I truly am for Your love.
I will give You my heart, life, soul, song,
Love...

I was just wondering,
How someone as wonderful as You,
Could be rejected as You are,
Could be ignored as You are,
When You're the soul's truest satisfaction?
Draw me close to You...

"Never let Me go,"

I'd lay my life down for You,
Because I know You are my friend.

"You are My desire,"

No one else will do,
No one else can take Your place.

"Feel the warmth of My embrace,"

Help me find a way,
Bring me back to You.

You're all I want,
You're all I've ever needed,
Help me know You are near.

I was just wondering...

March 22, 2009