Break the Cycle

Other: A Look into the Future

Due to my job situation (namely lacking one), I'm holding off on getting therapy. I'm probably going to try CBT and see if anyone in the area does EMDR (one of the only procedures that did any good the last time I was in therapy). I"m going to seek out either a psychologist or counselor since I absolutely do not want to deal with drugs. I'll also be discussing different issues this time, including a bad friendship that fucked me up worse than I initially thought and some of the misgivings I hold toward my parents (for example, the fact that when I was in therapy the last time they bought a convertible instead of making sure I had food and money to see the psychitatrist).

Until then, my major plan is to scale back big time on the site, which has been the greatest source of my anger over the last two years. I have some things I need to do before this cutback, but once those are done, my withdrawal from the community will be pretty dramatic. I will not be a mod, won't be helping out in Tech Support anymore and will not be running any major activities (with the exception of one contest). I've been putting this off forever, thinking I could fix things. It has occurred to me that I can't. So I give up. No more of this shit. Hopefully this will make me happier.