The Waiting Game

Tuesday is

Blah. Yeah, I said it. It's true. Been kinda of a blah day all around. Heard from an old friend today. Glad you're back healthyYahsPoet

I am not looking forward to tomorrow. I cannot stop staring at the calender either. That date is like a knife in the chest. And I will shut up about it until tomorrow since I am tearing up. Damn the emotional roller coaster of the Depo shot.

Got a lot of work done towards my new book that will be started come Sunday. I am getting excited, and that is always a good thing. Just need to nail down a few key issues for Jessie. Can't decide if her parents were murdered, or just died due the carbon monoxide from the old furnace. Wonder if it will just come to me like a lightening bolt, or if I will be struggling with that aspect. Please don't let me struggle!!! I have a clear picture of Jessie and Adam in my mind, and am working up an old character who didn't get much page time in Megan's Man. Think Jessie will need a good friend to confide in, and that's where Jill will come into the picture. I think Jill will also need a bf, and a pal for Jessie to date that will make Adam a bit irrational. Now if only I can get a good handle on the new male characters I have in mind. Looks like I have more work to do tomorrow.

Oh yes, I get to go to the dentist tomorrow. Not a good day for it. One, because of the date. And two, because my mouth has flared up, and it's really bad. So bad it hurts to eat, smile, talk, laugh, just being awake is no fun. And sleeping can be painful as well. I so dread sleeping tonight. Might have to go to some old alternatives that I am not looking forward to. UGH! I hope that someone out there figures out what the hell is wrong and stops this crap from happening to me. I'm exhausted from it. I want lasting answers, something I can work with. Ruling things out on a constant basis isn't helping. At this point I'd be happy with a positive test result and a solution. Whatever.

That's it, I'm off for the night. Have had enough fun for one day.

BTW - -lostdreams I am thinking of you. Hang in there!