Crazy Life 'o mine

01/12/09

I'm back. I'm guessing not a lot of people have missed me. That's okay. There really hasn't been a lot to mention.

I'm single again, I think. I haven't seen him over 2 months. If he is still my boyfriend and I don't know it, then he's still the worst boyfriend ever. Let's leave it at that. No wait, let's not. He can be good to everyone else. He is letting a friend stay with him--she (yes a she) doesn't have a place to stay. But he can't visit me. He can do errands for other people, but he can't get rid of the damned lawn-mower he promised to fix. He can say he's sorry for being the worst boyfriend, but when I say the best apology he can give me is red carnations and a box of chocolates..does he take the hint? Nope.

So. I'm done. At least I believe I am. I mean, people still ask me if I've talked with him, or seen him. And they ask me to pass on messages. People may not want to realize this, but his behavior says we're through, and my mouth says "boyfriend who?" You'd think we could all be on the same page.

Sadly, a part of me doesn't want it to end. How about this--he's boyfriend in name only. Is there such a thing?

I ran into several old boyfriends recently. Wes asked me why I ran away. I told him, at the time, he was offering a picture perfect life and I wasn't ready for it. I spent three whole days afterward obsessing about him. He's cute. He's attentive. He has a good sense of humor. What was wrong with me?

Then there's Brian (another ex). Lord that's a story for another day, when I've got a handle on it. Let's just say he wants us to get together, even though he's living with the mother of his son, so they can raise him together. But they hate each other. You tell me. I don't get it. He ain't getting "it" either. If you know what I mean.

You know, maybe I'm not ready for that picture perfect life now, that's why the worst boyfriend ever is still hanging on the fringes of my life, Brian popped back into my life, and I can't decide if I should give Wes a call to talk.

Thank God Tax season has started!!

It took me two days to get my computer set up. All I had to do was down load the program and set up Norton. Two days. I could have asked for help, but I had to muddle through it on my own.

Good God--it's a miracle I know how to get on the internet at this rate.

So that's my life for now. Fill you in on more later.