Break the Cycle

Obstacle...? A look into the human mind

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It doesn't pertain to the anger issues I have, but it does offer some useful insight. Anger does occur with attachment disorder and PTSD, so understanding what goes on when someone endures that kind of trauma can help us understand the vast emotional response of anger. That's really what anger is: an emotional response. People like to treat it as a mental condition, but I'm learning that it's not.

Maybe it isn't for me. I've noticed that I have been less angry in the past year, but I still get angry. However, my anger (the bllod curdling hatred kind) has been much less severe since I upped my exercise level, exposed myself to fewer days with temperatures in the 90s and kept myself occupied with many projects and events that focus my attention away from the little shit that pisses me off so much. That's not to say I don't get angry. If anyone had provoked me last week, I'd have taken out my anger toward that jackass Michael Phelps on the unsuspecting person lured into my crosshairs.Yeah. My utter hatred for that scum of the Earth knows no bounds, although track and field events are keep me from flying to Beijing and strangling someone (anyone, really). So I'm in a liquid equilibrium here of lingering anger toward a lofty goal being achieved by a cocky son of a bitch and joy at watching track and field, something that has always brought me joy for as long as I've watched the Olympics.

The other thing that intrigued me was Mavis mentioning Cognitive Behavior Therapy, which I have done before. However, it was only for a short time (even though it was easier than seeing the psychiatrist). Some people might think it's more of a placebo than anything, perhaps even a mind game we play on ourselves. I still prefer it to popping happy pills myself, even if I play tricks on my own mind. It could be useful in toning down my angry reactions, or at least keep my blood pressure from coming back to bite me in the ass later in life.

For anyone that cares, though, my blood pressure has tested in the normal range the past couple doctor's visits I've had. Go figure.