Distant Voices

paranoid.....

I keep thinking i am going to get caught that he is coming back.. like he always does unexpectedly and this time he will catch me.. but catch me doing what internet??? i am seriously having like butterfly feeling, my stomach hurts and i feel like i am going to puke everytime i imagine him coming back in the middle of the night and knowing i sit and write these journals about him..

What a life i lead.. and how bored i am that stupid useless people who dont know me --entertain me.. its funny how i can mold myself into anybody and anything..

i fucking hate dubai.. i want to go back to the states get naked and tan... why is it a big deal inthis country if your dark skin or not.. so i stay away from the sun because white is beautiful and tan is ugly!!