NOW THAT'S NOT FUNNY

Time Flys rather you're having fun or NOT

It's been quite some time since I last posted here, and so much has happened and changed with me. I guess it's a good thing that nothing ever really stays the same, but for now...

I look in the mirror and I'm older... older than I ever thought I would live to be. Life is an amazing gift - and I've taken it as much for granted as the next person. I've come to appreciate life so much more since I had a heart attack on January 1st, 2007. I am so grateful that I still have the opportunity to continue living... weird I know but true just the same. I also quit smoking on January 29th, 2007... still not smoking, but now I realize how much I use to "STINK" - that's just sad in so many ways... first for what cigarettes costs then and now you'd think that name brands like Marlboro, Camel, Winston, and other major brands could've at least made the smoke smell better - but OH NO... instead of spending their R&D time and money on making a better smelling cigarette the idiots where out there manipulating the nicotine content... gee...

And how much money are cigarette companies really making that all the fines and costs associated with The Tobacco Settlement haven't put "them" out of business?

Back when I was justifying my own nasty smoking habit I read about all the harsh, cancer causing chemicals added to tobacco in the manufacturing process... and it makes me wonder why there is no real honest to goodness natural tobacco? It's been 1 year 3 months since I quit smoking... I did it cold turkey... I didn't waste any more money on these over the counter cigarette smoking substitutes... and I can honestly say there are still days when I feel like I really, really, really want a cigarette - I don't but damn how I wish that "want to" desire would just go away and stay the hell away...

I've read that 90 percent of all cancers are caused by smoking... Native Indians were smoking when "we" first got to the Americas... so just when did cigarettes become so toxic... I guess it really doesn't matter one way of another about cigarettes - like it or not my smoking days are over... damn it