Thoughts on "the game"

Frozen Sperm

Thankfully
we have learned to do anything a man can do.
Some of us even buy frozen sperm
to lose the idea of having a sweaty, grunting man around the house...
demanding more of his share of space and resources.
Most of them are desensitized to work,
have long since been removed from the used-to-be passed on skills of mechanics
and handymen, or fixers and protectors.
Yes, some think we've shot our selves in the foot, so to speak...
cut our nose off, to spite our beautiful faces
insisted that we bee seen as more than breasts and ego boosts,
we’ve revealed and unleashed our potential
and gotten ourselves in a place where the earning, the fixing,
the protecting and the surviving
are simply done with the left hand of a woman
who is leading, creating, negotiating, researching and changing the world
while nurturing, pollinating, feeding and loving
instinctually, with the right.

Perhaps it's our own fault, all this "liberation"...
who knew that the simple request to have a voice and a vote
would create an entire society of men
with no work ethic, no skills, no conviction toward family or marriage...
but an entire society left only with the brute instincts we have tried to overlook
for thousands of years...
to love them in spite of
a life-purpose that goes no deeper than the skin-deep desire
to conquer a body,
and collect a trash heap of must-have toys and material statements.
The more feeble ones are frail-boned and withering away in their cubicles
counting their money and lost in their electronic fantasy of choice
in front of their play stations and masking their inner 9 year old with a 9-5
spent surfing eBay and downloading Paris Hilton.
The strong ones are leading companies and countries,
right into wars of greed and ego,
fighting only for the fuel their habits require
which validates their relative "size" on this planet.

Meanwhile women are having xanex and yoga for lunch
And we've installed "changing tables" in the men's bathrooms
to make sure they get their chances
and we exempt them from chivalry,
and lowered the expectation of them becoming communicators or multi-taskers.
We excuse them from earning,
because woman can do better without complaining
and we pay the therapist or mediator to dig through their childhood dysfunction
that keeps them from committing
or being faithful
or being available...
without being a stalker or a pedophile.
Because they are so driven by their instincts
that we’ve all swallowed it as the eternal excuse.
And we continue to accept less.
Each year;
each generation;
we make stronger girls
and weaker boys
and help everyone to find their "voice" equally
while silently condoning that they take what they need,
and leave the rest.

And it’s so far from where we began
That people just "practice" procreation
because it's always an option to collect
"baby-mama’s" instead of wives or even ex-wives.
Because our expectation of them was so low to begin with,
That we’ve forgotten to ask ourselves what OUR instincts wanted
or what it will be like to be tied to his dead weight for the next 20 years,
until the government decides the definition of "fatherly duty" for him.

And a woman grows a child from her soul,
and donates her flesh, her sleep, her heart and her blood
and spends the rest of her life giving what's left of it away...
hoping they might never experience a drop of pain
or disappointment, or shame...
She stuffs and pushed down the blame
for lack of promise
by those who only know to waiver
and pinching off the root each time she is hurt...
because she must tow the line
and for her there are no excuses when the babies are crying
and the world is dying.
because she has to apologize for wanting to be married,
and it makes her weak to need.
And she has to manipulate or play games,
to hide desire.
Heaven forbid that we might scare one of these fragile fools,
Who contribute nothing but heartache, sperm and more work
but might disappear into the night
with the next woman sifting her way through the fear of dying alone
and ratcheting down her God given desires,
learning to ask for less,
earn more,
look better
and speak little.

I doubt that the condition of men has changed much,
since the dawn of time.
And the desire for companionship and life-long sharing,
is still
natural
God given
and good.

So I won’t apologize for wanting it.
I won’t be shamed for the occasional need to feel small
Or desire to feel safe
And unconditionally accepted.
And I wont stop earning or voting
because I don’t have to pick
between female and strong.

Eventually, man will.
Either they will "find themselves" in this journey
and stop resting on their laurels that get them by with minimal effort
and this Universe will give them a place here, again
where their contributions produce more good
than harm.
Or we will pick
between raising our men alongside our children
or raising children with our soul mate women
buying frozen sperm
with what we earn.

Either way,
I believe we have discovered the definition
Of Evolution
and
Survival of the fittest.



LMcKiernan 1-11-08

Creativity is the willingness to express emotion and the ability to explore it without perfection.


Creativity is the willingness to express emotion and the ability to explore it without perfection.