Amygdalia's Blog

And so it goes

I've got less than a week until Dhoc-li Llama 's Bat Mitzvah.  I'm trying so hard to get everything done, and not get stressed, but it's very clearly not working.  I still have to write something to read at the service, and I'm completely lost . . . I sit down and have no idea what I should write.  And now, I'm pretty sure the c diff has returned.  I've been having tummy trouble since Friday, but last night it seemed . . . different.  Bob's at the grocery store, buying fruit rollups, because the only way I can tolerate the medication (which I do have) is to wrap it in a fruit rollup before swallowing it.  I'm sitting here crying.  Why now?  I don't have time for this.  I don't want to be sick for her Bat Mitzvah.  I'm not going to be able to have a glass of wine, or have a drink with my friend while she's visiting.  I'm never going to get rid of this stupid thing.  I'm going to have to worry about it for the rest of my freaking life.  If I can't keep it at bay by taking probiotics every day, and it even comes back when I'm not on antibiotics . . . I'm SO terrified of having to go on antibiotics. 

Just took the first dose. 

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