What a wonderful world!

Broken Voice... Can't sing! Sad day!

I love to sing...but can't do that now, because my voice is totally broken! I don't know if I sing well or not, because that is for the audience to judge. Didn't touch my harmonium for more than a month. Played that yeasterday, at 1 am.

I saw insects roaming around on that beloved instrument. The cover had a coat of dust on it.

The harmonium was a birthday gift from my elder brother and his wife. I got it on
2003, a few years back. Had to do its servicing last year. I just adore music!

Today was a Saturday. I had three consecutive classes, but couldn't go to college because my uncle passed away.

I had visited my uncle at the Kidney Hospital last Sunday. He held my hand so tightly. He stopped speaking some days back. Used to communicate using signs. He told me many things using different signs. Asked me to study more, and pray for him.

But alas! Even if I want to, I can't pray! Oh! Allah! Why did you create me like this?

May uncle's soul rest in peace, may all the seven doors of heaven open for him...Amen!

I haven't gone to college for many days. Last monday was the last time I saw my friends. I was extremely sick, so had to stay home against my will. My friends kept on calling me. My cell phone beeped with messages. But didn't have credit in my prepaid account, so couldn't reply back. I know they'll understand.

Tuesday, Wednesday.. and now Saturday! Oh God! Three whole days? How am I gonna catch up? I have to study a lot these days, or else June would be the last month of my life! I wanna do well...but how am I gonna do well without studying properly?

My teachers help me a lot. I'm not a good student, still they support me, I don't know why? I want A this time, not B's and C like last time!!!

Don't know what'll happen. It was a friend's birthday on the 27th, didn't even make a gift for her, though I wanted to!!!

You're a lazy girl, a very bad girl, Falguni.

Hope everything will be alll right, or else I'm doomed!!

Worst of all, humming bird can't Hum... Hell! I wanna sing again! I wanna be my old self! Not like a stupid lazy hag.

Couldn't even collect the statement of entry for June exam. All my friends went to Thunderbolt today, except me. Didn't give the college fees either, still have the money in my purse.

Then my best friend, Lunarmirror called and talked about a really irritating person who was once our friend. Sorry sweetie, you might read this, but I just hated talking about Mr. Mental Patient today.

Today just isn't my day at all.