Memoirs

Okay, Okay

okay, okay

i'll give you some credit
         you did what you thought was best
                   even though we couldn't really afford the house
                             keeping me in the same environment
                                       probably helped ease the pain of losing her
                                                 you were having a hard time, too, and couldn't
                                                 think about finances when we needed you to
                                       you were grieving, and mourners aren't practical
                             you wanted to make my christmases special
                   big, too, since i was your only child
         it was what i was used to
it was thoughtful of you


okay, okay
i can see why you did it

but dad
i hope you realize
you were thinking with your heart
not your brain
and because of that
i have to move
without even you to help me

i love you forever
anyway