Starting Over...

24 months to go...

Alright, so it's not like it's right around the corner, but thinking about the end of my boss' current grant as an endpoint does make me feel better. I was doing rodent surgery all day today and 3 of my 7 patients died. I think I must really suck at this job. Nobody's really told me me that and I have no basis for comparison except for the grad student I work with. She's lost like two of the 50 or so animals she's operated on. I'm orbiting around a 30% loss for my 50 animals.

A part of me hopes that I'll learn to love my job in the next 2 years. I'm just tired of feeling like I'm on the bottom of the learning curve. I'm finally settling into C'ville after 6 years. I've got a church, regular activities (mostly through the gym), and friends. It would be sad to pick up and move, which is most certainly what would happen if I changed careers. I simply can't afford to live in C'ville while starting over. *sigh* How can I still be in my quarter life crisis when I'm turning 29 next month?