Mountains of my life: Forever Soldier

To be in a Trauma

How does it feel to be in a trauma? Can one recover from a trauma? A few things I ask. I've been there once, and I didn't know that I was there. When in a trauma, you're in a different world. You don't feel anything. But it's not that you are without feelings or emotions, or you're there lifeless. I was there so sensitive, like a child, like a newborn babe who can not be touched, so emotional, so "new" to this world. Crying alone was my way of expressing, or an outlet. My memory was blurred, meaning I was living in the present world and my past was sort of erased, just the past.

Now, I can explain everything. I can look at the distant past like it was just an ordinary experience. And the memories, the details are so vivid to me now, that I am able to smile refreshing them in my memory. It was an experience. It is an experience. The trauma, the mark in my past is just a lesson. God put it there.