Musings and Meanderings

Long Time No See

It has been awhile - again. I received a great comment from another wdc member - thank you!! It was such a great nudge to see someone else say what I am thinking, and realize that not only am I transparent, but also that something's gotta give.

I am on the road to recovery. Two weeks ago I had a near breakdown - I had been drinking steadily for about a week and a half, and all of a sudden my mind got tired of holding on and simply let go. I can't blame her, it must have been frustrating to try to keep the fragments together, and I'm surprised I lasted as long as I did. And all this time I was going to work, pretending to be ok, and to be honest,I can't even really remember those few weeks.

I've been drinking pretty much steadily ever since I was 14, and alcoholism runs in my family. I have tried quitting twice before, but never had a support system in place before attempting to become sober. This time I have this great guy who is very supportive, and a close friend who's been going to AA for years - so my chances are much better off the start. WIsh me luck. I've had some bad withdrawals and I'm nearing my second week of sobriety, so it should get physically easier. I quit smoking six years ago, and I figured I should be able to do this, too.

talk to y'all soon!