Breathing Room

Monthaversary

Yesterday was my monthaversary...YES we celebrate every single month...he got me a card which was nice I didn't have anything to give but I'll pick up something tonight to give to him. The thing is we have these huge blow up arguments where he tells me how he's sick of this relationship and its a joke but then I get a gift on our monthaversary....I never know how these days will go when according to him he can't remember a holiday where we've ever gotten along. WHATEVER

I'm thinking about going into therapy. I like to think of myself as my own personal therapist and I think that I do a pretty good job (esp. since I watch Starting Over and I used to watch Dr. Phil) but ultimately I analyze my life and my self I think pretty accurately but I would love to hear the opinion of a licensed person and what they have to say...my boyfriend's goal is to be a psychologist and I already know his opinion...

I find these journal entries therapeutic because I'm releasing all these thoughts and it just so happens that each time I've written things in a journal on paper my boyfriend(s) have taken it upon themselves to read them and get angry and the thoughts and feelings that I've written...who has time to try and defend my ever changing thoughts and opinions of you? Not me