The Life Of Me.

Time flies by

Doesn't it?

I'm back at school again from half-term. It feels weird being here, I was quite happy not coming here every day during the half-term. I enjoyed doing my work at home. I haven't had any lessons yet, but you never know, I might enjoy them. Hah. Lol.

What can I say? I had a great half-term. I worked hard, I even came to school to do extra work, but I also had so much fun. Martin has stayed over quite a lot during the last two weeks, and I love it. I love waking up to find him next to me. We've been going out over 10 months In some ways it feels longer than that, but in others, it feels like it just hasn't been long enough. I want to know more about him, I want to know what makes him tick, what makes him happy, and what I can do to make sure his life is as good as he deserves. I'm so lucky.

For example, Andi and Gemma are arguing all the time now (gutter! ), and he doesn't even care that they've been going out a year! So, no anniversary plans there lol. We'll definitely do something, because this means a lot to us. It means a lot because we've been hurt before, and this is a new start, and confirmation that this is only the beginning of something amazing. A year...it's a long time. Some people might not agree...but it doesn't feel like that long a time. I was going out with Carl for 18 months...yeah that almost killed me, but it didn't feel that long...With Martin, the time has just flown by. I'm always so much happier when I'm with him. I think I'm a better person too. I think I've had a good effect on him too. He's got himself into university with lots of hard work, and I did try to push him and encourage him to do his best, because I know he can do it. And he has I've introduced him to things he hasn't really thought much about before, art, theatre, books. He's reading The DaVinci Code at the moment, the first book he's chosen to read on his own that wasn't homework lol. I'm proud of him What's best though, is that he's enjoying it. And he's encouraged me to further my musical abilities, e.g. buying me a new guitar, which I always wanted.

I'm getting better at the guitar too I've picked it up quite quickly, and I love it! I've been playing a good half an hour a day, or until my fingers hurt too much lol. I can't wait until I can play whatever I want. I just love it so much! Can't wait till I can also help with the band.

I'm mad at Dad. He's making Katie feel like he doesn't love us, because he hasn't talked to us for two weeks now. He wasn't bothered about my recording studio experience, that HE bought. He isn't bothered about what Katie's up, what I'm up to...we just don't matter. His "proper" family, is more important than us. Meh. It's really getting to Katie. Yeah, it gets to me too, but she needs to feel like she matters, like she's an important part of everyone's lives.

Grrr....but yay, because I'm still happy with my boyfriend I hate using that word...to me he's so much more than just a boyfriend...

He's coming to Essex with us next weekend I'm so excited!