Black Eyes, Blue Heart

look to look

given the nature of affection
I look into the other direction
as you cause me to think of things
that should not be thought
Certain conversations should not have wrought
my consciousness should not have caught
me blind-sighted and benighted by what I was taught
i try to not think about you
even though you are all that is there
to be there
and i know that what I think should not be
but I should not have seen
what is there
what this is
is called a tangent
a confused babble
and now i am lost
within my own thoughts
yet found in your eyes
as I look at you looking at me
and wonder
why