Crazy Days

ahhh....

Sometimes I really want a boyfriend and right now is one of those times. I love having independences and being able to do what I want but I really miss the little things. I wanna lay in bed and laugh and just be playful and just have someone to kiss goodnight. I want someone to know me inside and out. I know that eventally I will find that someone again and in the mean time I am contining to get to know myself but I will be happy when that time comes.

I can't help but have feelings for Davenewyork. I dont know what it is. Its just so easy with him. We just laugh and have fun and I just care about him. I know that nothing can ever happen though. There has already been so many problems with that whole situation that I can't even touch it. Plus the fact that he lives in New York really doesn't help. I didn't have feels for him in the begining because I was definatley distracted by steve. But the more I step back from the situation and the more I talk to Dave the more I look at him in that light. I would never tell him any of this of course becuase then they both would def think I was playing games!lol! I don't know, the alst few weeks I have learned a lot about myself and what I am looking for and the main thing I want is someone fun who shows they care. He is both of those things.

Oh well no need to think about it really.