Life as we know it sucks

Soaring Gas Prices and Blubbering Boyfriends

Current Mood: restless

Current Music: Imogen Heap - Hide and Seek

Yea, so you know what's ridiculous? Besides work and retarded boyfriend? Gas prices, that's what. Just last week, it was $2.45 a gallon, now it's up to $3.09 to $3.49 a gallon. Gees. Because of that damn hurricane! I can't believe it! I want them to fucking go down - not up! Damnit! *sigh* I'm terrified that I won't be able to afford it. And my car payment. And insurance. I'm putting a NO spending limit on myself for a few months so I don't, like, die. I need to save and learn to save and start being an adult. I'm just so scared about everything for the future.

At least I have Shane - the blubbering baby. He just got on my nerves when I decided not to go over there. Come on! We spend so much time together. I think it would be totally different if we were married. I think I would miss him more and would want to spend more time with him . . . but right now - I need all the space I can get. Sure, I dream about the future and sometimes it's without him . . . but for some reason, I just don't think it'll end up that way. I don't think I'll ever "get rid of him" - so to speak. There's no way to. he will always have a part of my heart and I just don't think it'd work without him. Granted, I've wanted to date around more, but I don't think I really need to, you know? We'll see what happens.

For now, I'm laying off the gas.

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