Life as we know it sucks

Thinking

Current Mood: tired

Current Music: none

Sometimes I wonder why I feel and think the way I do. I've had "crying spells" today. I'll just start tearing up at anything. I feel so bad. Bad about what? Oh - thinking about breaking it off with Shane; thinking about cheating on him; thinking about other guys . . . thinking about cutting again; thinking I wish I could be depressed because that's the only time I ever write anything good. When I'm happy or at least content, I never write anything. Last November/October, I was confused and guilt-ridden and I produced some magnificent things in my Creative Writing class. I haven't written anything new since December. That's pathetic.



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