The Life Of Me.

18th July 2005

Odd Day. I didn't sleep a wink last night. There was loadsa drama when Martin was out with them lot. A mate was being a dick and starting on everyone, especially Martin. Lots of fighting. Then I kept being so nasty to him on the phone at like 12am...(I'd been in bed since half 10, and still hadn't been able to sleep.) then I felt bad...sent a stupid text about how he should dump me lol :-S and then sent another one saying sorry properly, then I phoned him...because I was worried...and...was like 3am before I finally drifted off. Had to get up at half 7 I'm absolutely shattered. Don't feel that bad really, I've felt worse when I'm tired, maybe it'll catch up with me tomorrow.

I was really oversensitive though. I got told off by a teacher *which was all very silly and not going to get into because I'm right*, and I went off crying...lol. Went to see Martin and was pure down...for no reason...but I was okay when I got home, and then I went out for a pizza with him tonight, and I was very happy and rather hyper. Feel a bit *sigh* kinda tired at the moment though. Very weird day. I miss him...An hour and a half wasn't long enough tonight...I didn't even get a proper kiss...though I love kissing him even without tongues. I never thought it was possible to have sensual kisses without using your tongue...but when he catches my lips in a hungry kiss, slightly sucking on my bottom lip...it's just amazing. I love kissing him. I love the way he's sometimes really forceful, I just feel so loved and wanted and kissable

Hmm....I should go to bed soon I'm a little sleepy...