Ramblings and Musings

Ennui persists

For nearly a month, my mind is in a perpetual block. I don't care if people remove me from their reviewing groups, if people ignore me or if the moderators themselves notice the fact that I do not visit wdc daily, nor review others' items, nor write anything - not even this blog, which I think is the best part of wdc - especially for someone as less motivated as I - it seems that I have grown tired of wdc. The main reason is - and this is something I have stated in my very first entry - that my effort for the last over two and a half years has been unrecognised by the powers-that-be on wdc. The plain truth is that while I do not consider myself to be a great writer, I have nearly 150 items in my portfolio, ranging from novels, novellas, stories, poems, essays, word-searches, articles, surveys, forums, contests, and even - for Allah's sake - madlibs. I have reviewed nearly a thousand items of others. My port has had over 1300 - 1500 views. I have so many friends, I have rewarded items. I have so much - and yet, no recognition for these - and so many other things that I have done here.

It is so depressing. You may say that WDC expressly mentions that those who complain about this stand even lesser chance of being promoted or recognised. So be it. I think that a blog is therefore, the only place on wdc where one may air one's grievances.

I cannot sit and write inanities. I do not feel like sending gift points, awardicons or even praise to the seniors here, as I feel they do not deserve me. Since I am a "Mr. Nobody" to them, why should I waste my time and resources to glorify their work?

This is not to say that I do not enjoy their work. On the contrary, I do. However, it bugs me that inspite of what they say about awarding Preferred authorships in their policy statements, they do not find my work worthy of it.

This writer invites comments on this blog from all readers. I assure you all that I am not angry, just disillusioned, and I am willing to remove this entry if someone tells me honestly what I have done to deserve this ... this kind of treatment from the staff and the seniors on wdc.

Humbly, I submit this blog entry for your kind apprisal and comments.